Monday, June 03, 2013
The time has really flown for me as I have been so busy trying to get prepared for my surgery that is only 3 days away!
I've been very stressed, scared, second-guessing, etc. but now as it gets even closer I realize that it's for the best. I'm really concerned about losing my ovaries (already know one is going) and I'm also concerned about being in surgical menopause as well as worried about recovery (pain, not being able to have my normal routine for a long time, etc.).
I have done as much physically as I can to get ready with the time that I have left, but still don't feel I have it all done.
I truly only have two full days left to get ready since the day before surgery I have to go back to the hospital for blood work (in case they have to give me a blood transfusion) and surgery prep. Today and tomorrow are going to be super busy for me as I have last minute preparations and appts. to take care of too.
I plan to buy a shower stool as I am not sure if I will be able to handle showering standing up since I normally have low blood pressure anyway and can only imagine how I will feel in the days after surgery.
Friends are helping me with activities for the kids so I can have a little free time to take care of the things I have to get done, and my husband is taking some vacation time to help me with recovery.
I'm not in a lot of pain which is messing with my head since I second-guess everything, but honestly that's not the reason for the surgery (pain). I have faced surgeries before, but this one is different because not only am I having abdominal surgery, but I'm also having organs removed that affect your hormones and a woman's emotional feelings (don't mean that my ovaries or uterus control my emotions, but rather the removal of them can cause emotions).
I just have to do what I have to do and deal with the situation afterward and hope for the best.