Monday, June 03, 2013
I have been so weak with my eating on weekends and I want to get better! I'm afraid I failed myself again this weekend. I'm starting to develop some bad eating habits that are so hard to break. Since I started this journey, I have always had a cheat day. Sunday is my only cheating day, but for some reason I have started cheating on Saturday as well. I fell out of my weight maintenance range back in January and it's been a battle since then. I want so badly to get back down to the 130's again. I know it's not about the number, but I loved being in the 130's. They looked good on my 5'7 medium build frame. I just need to be strong and fight these bad habits that are trying to creep back in. I always eat tons of fruits and veggies daily and focus on getting enough protein and fiber. I'm going to stop buying myself little treats and I need to just get the eating back under control. Before SP, when I was overweight I used to just mindlessly eat all day and I'm finding myself wanting to do that again, even when not hungry. I was able to over come it before, I hope I can do it again.
My goal is to lose 5-7 pounds over the next couple months. I'm going to try not to eat more than 1500-1600 calories daily. This may sound crazy but I want to cut down on exercise too. I feel like I have been overdoing it lately and my body is letting me know.
On the plus side of things, I ran two races over the last two weekends and they went really well. I ran a 10K last Saturday and took 1st for women. I was 6th to finish overall so that means I beat a bunch of guys too. I'll admit it, I love outrunning the guys mostly because of the men who say that women can't do it. I can tell you that women are capable of being very powerful and strong athletes. Yesterday I did a 5K fun run for a charity. It wasn't a very big race but I still finished 2nd overall. I love being competitive and I just love to run. I'm sure I will be running a few more races coming up. I don't have anything lined up right now. I really want to train for a half marathon but I have things holding me back. A 5K is not a challenge for me, but I feel challenged by a 10K, so that scares me that I wouldn't be able to handle 13.1 miles. My "long runs" are 7-8 miles right now. I can handle it, but then my body needs 2-3 days to recover. I have not been able to overcome my low back injuries I started feeling last August. I'm worried if I run more it will be too much for my body. I'm just not sure what to for my body at this point so that I could train for a half marathon. I'll keep it on my bucket list. I'm jealous of everyone I know who can compete at that distance. It will be my dream someday.
I need you SP to keep me strong and help me reach my goals!