Sunday, June 02, 2013
It's been one of those days...
You know where you wake up NOT feeling refreshed even though you got plenty of sleep and then the rest of the day you don't have the energy to do anything. It's too hot to go outside (100 degrees) and nothing seems to give you pleasure...not TV, not the internet, not playing phone games...
At around 5:30 I finally took a shower...for the day. And it's Sunday, which means I just have to start it all over again. The sad thing is I don't have any friends. Seriously. The only friend I have is my boyfriend. I have some "acquaintances" that I say are my friends, but their really not.
My problem is I think about all these deep issues all the time and I have no one to share them with really. People don't like to talk about more than the surface issues. They don't even think about it all that often. I think about those things pretty much all the time. And I can't relate to anyone it seems. So then I turn to food. Food is comfort from boredom, depression, the void.... but that's not a good thing because then it becomes excess and you know what they say about excess "Too much of anything is a bad thing."
I'm supposed to cook dinner right now. I really don't want to. But I know if I eat out I'm probably going to just feel bad later, not to mention so will my pocketbook!! I've been trying to save money by eating at home, but it's SO hard on days like these.