When I started this weight loss journey in January- I was sick of being "SICK AND TIRED' as they say in the addiction field.
I could not get from the house to the garage without being winded- (a very short distance but slightly up hill), I could not go shopping anywhere without a cart and by the time I reached the checkout at the grocery store I was covered with sweat- my back would hurt-
Anywhere we went as a family- I would wanted to be dropped off- in my car I used my mother's handicapped sticker so I could use handicapped parking. There were countless humiliating times when I was working that I could not keep up with people walking from place to place.
One night I was on call and had to go to an ER to see a little boy in crisis and I had to park maybe 1/10th mile from hospital and walk all over the hospital to the right dept- I was so out of shape- I had to stop numerous times to rest and would be out of breath by the time I got there- so embarrassing! Then there was the time I took my dad to drs office and there was literally no chair I could fit in. (I carry at least 70% of my weight from the waist down.)
My younger son was embarrassed by me- my older son was worried about me- I was so embarrassed and humiliated by myself but couldn't seem to change.
When I started in January- I just wanted to feel better and 5 months later I feel so different I can hardly believe it.
Today was a big milestone for me- my family went out to a racino place with a buffet for my mother-in-law's birthday. We parked probably 5 or 6 double rows back- I got out of the car and walked to the building- all of a sudden I'm thinking to myself- "look at you walking- you are actually ahead of the rest of the family"- we walked in and had to go up some stairs- about two flight worth and then walked more into the right section of the restaurant. Now my left knee is not great so I do need to use railing but I was not winded- I was not sweating!
I was very excited and kept telling my sons- "can you believe it?" tonight I walked home from my mom's - just a couple blocks but last time I bothered my back hurt and I was tired.
As I said before- I am 70% butt and no boobs but I had old bras I had bought years ago that were supposed to re-arrange what you had to look a lot better. I can fit in them now! As long as I am dressed it looks pretty good.
I have lost 55 pounds, I am still a little over 300 and have lots more to go but I am feeling so positive. I have achieved the biggest wish I had which was not to be humiliated during "normal activities" These NSVs have totally given me a new lease on wanting to move and eat healthy and keep it up. This weekend I was around a lot of delicious foods but stuck with my fruits, veggies, salad, shrimp, fish and I feel good- the rich fattening food was not really calling my name. I felt satisfied that I could eat my more filling food- which took a longer time and was much more satisfying than a small dense fatty food that took a minute or two to eat.
And I have to thank you all my spark friends- your advice, support and stories keep me going.
To me its like an online AA meeting for food addiction that has been what I was missing before and what is helping me succeed.