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Finding Confidence in Myself

Sunday, June 02, 2013

I have been on this journey since 2008. FIve years later I am still not at goal. I have continued making healthy choices, staying within range and exercising faithfully. For over two years I have seen no progress. Yes, those years have been filled with a stressful family situation.
I have been doing all I can to overcome the stress in a situation over which I have no control or ability to affect change.
One of the ways I have done this is to start taking photos again. I have always loved doing that. I have hiked, walked the neighborhood, visited gardens and done a small bit of traveling taking my camera along.
In the past year I have started a daily photo blog, where I post one image every day. Photographers from around the world use the site and I get positive feedback from many of them. They have helped me learn and get better as a photographer and editor. ( www.ruthiemade.aminus3.c
) (If you visit please leave a comment at the bottom of the page.)
One of my trainers at the gym is a professional photographer. She has encouraged me so much, telling me what a great eye I have. SHe also challenged me to blow up some of my images onto canvas. I have done this, though I was scared they would look awful that big. Everyone loves them and tells me they look like paintings.

I have been building up confidence in myself as a photographer. In so many ways I have felt like a failure and a disappointment. Pursuing my photography has been a way to restore faith in myself.

Three weeks ago, we were at a NJ HIstory Fair at the local park, and I met the pastor of the church down the street. He told me about their first NJ Heritage Fair, featuring local businesses and artists. He invited me to participate. No fees involved. I accepted, but I was very nervous and scared. I had never put my work out there for people to buy.
I had a bunch of my photos printed on metallic paper and made them into photo frame cards. I also had some postcards printed.
It was a lot of work but I felt happy doing it.
Yesterday was the big day. The church gave me a perfect location, under a tree so I had shade all day, and near the entrance. In addition to the photocards, I also brought along 3 of my canvases.
It was from 11-4. During that time I got so much positive feedback. People actually said they loved my photos! They told me what good eye I have. They were telling me stories about some of the scenes I captured.
ALthough I did not make a lot of money, I made a lot of new friends, who have my business card and can buy images if they want to. I sold quite a few photo frame cards, took one order for prints.
More than anything else, I am happy that I put myself out there. I am finally accepting that I do take good photos. I feel like I am succeeding in something.
If you would like to see the images I am offering you can see them here:

I think you will like what you see! emoticon emoticon

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SPARTAN40 6/11/2013 10:51PM

    Your photos are amazing!

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CAROLYNVIL 6/10/2013 1:30AM

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RUNNER4LIFE08 6/6/2013 9:09AM

    emoticon for getting out of your comfort zone! I think your pictures look wonderful and do have to agree... you have a great eye.

Only more good things to come for you..... emoticon

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AQUAGIRL08 6/5/2013 6:46PM

    Awesome! You are one very tallented woman. Believe in yourself and the rest will come!

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ORCHIDLADY56 6/4/2013 8:52PM

    You DO have a wonderful eye! Love the photography! You have captured everything perfectly!

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MAW_OH 6/4/2013 6:54AM

    emoticon I like your photo's. They are beautiful!

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TKOVACH1 6/3/2013 7:34PM

    Your photos are beautiful! You have a wonderful eye to capture these beautiful images.

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AMY-MIMI77 6/3/2013 1:37PM

    I LOVE your pictures and are so proud of you; glad that you had a positive experience.

You are my inspiration!

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AFERRARI 6/3/2013 12:57PM

    Love your photos, love you...You are a wonderful person who will meet those goals. Never give up

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FORBANDE 6/3/2013 7:58AM

    What fantastic feedback!! It's so awesome that you are hearing and starting to believe what others see in you. Your photos and eye are wonderful!!

I'm so happy that you took the plunge and put your work out there. How rewarding!!!

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READYBETTY 6/2/2013 11:01PM

    Ruthie, the pictures are beautiful. I'm so happy for you getting the encouragement to put yourself out there with your photography and the great response you're receiving. emoticon

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 6/2/2013 10:56PM

    Too cool! Beautiful florals.

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DIFROMWYOMING 6/2/2013 10:04PM

    The photos are wonderful and the fact you're still here growing IS progress!

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1CRAZYDOG 6/2/2013 8:51PM

    I don't think it's bad at all that you're not @ goal yet. It's a journey and there are many detours, some more difficult than others, that affect our journey's progress.

You pictures that you've shared here are gorgeous!

Hugs and smiles.

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CARRAND 6/2/2013 8:12PM

    I love your photos! What a talent you have. Thanks for sharing your websites.

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NILLAPEPSI 6/2/2013 7:38PM

    You know what? It's ok if you're still not at goal yet. It's going to take as long as it takes. You are still doing something every single day to get you toward your goal.

Such beautiful photos!!! Oh wow!! You are quite talented & you have an amazing eye.

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WALLAHALLA 6/2/2013 6:40PM

    You have an amazing talent. So glad you are sharing it with the world.

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PATTYKLAVER 6/2/2013 6:23PM

    I'm glad you're involved with your photography and that you're finding comfort and success.

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SHANSHE 6/2/2013 5:49PM

    This is sooo awesome Ruthie! I love this blog, that you have built back some confidence in doing something you love and well, this was such a positive blog all the way around!

I am going to look at some of your photos on shutterfly now!

P.S. I miss you!

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SASSYLJB 6/2/2013 4:59PM

    amazing ruthie just amazing i have always said you have a great eye and these prove it I would love to have that second one in my house it is just beautiful and would fit perfectly! You are amazing Diamond Girl and Inspire me daily!

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SUNSHINEGB 6/2/2013 2:10PM

    You have a gift of knowing how and what to photograph! I enjoyed going to the sites to look, thank you!

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GINGER_BEAR 6/2/2013 1:43PM

    You are a wonderful photographer! emoticon

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JESSICAWALKS 6/2/2013 11:52AM

    Wonderful! Your photos are beautiful, and I agree you have such an artistic eye! My mom has had a great career as a watercolor artist. Yet, no matter how many people love her work, buy her work, compliment her work, she never sees what they (we) do. You are the only one that can tell yourself that you are talented, beautiful, and successful. Your opinion is what matters, so give yourself a hand, you deserve it!

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KITT52 6/2/2013 11:43AM

    beautiful are so talented

have a healthy week

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OSTERA15 6/2/2013 11:29AM

    Way to go Ruthie! Putting yourself out there is hard and you did it! emoticon

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JUNEAU2010 6/2/2013 11:26AM

    I, too, have a friend who is a great photographer. I am not, but I appreciate those who are! So proud of and happy for you! Checking out your pics now!

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DOTTIEJANE1 6/2/2013 11:16AM

    emoticon emoticon your photos are AWESOME , you are on you way to so many things enjoy the journey ,weight loss will come .

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