Saturday, June 01, 2013
As the 8-week interim comes to an end, I've been doing a bit of thinking about what I've learned, and what I still have to work on.
I've learned that once I give in to temptation, I tend to let all good habits fly out the window. If I have pizza for dinner, why not top it off with ice cream? If I have lunch out with Ed, why not stop for a large coffee and donut on the way home, instead of the bottle of water I've got hanging out in the back seat of the car? And if I don't fee like going to the gym, why not work out at home, even though I know it's not good enough, yet tell myself it is better than nothing, and I will make it up next time.
I've also learned that I still give into others' wishes when it comes to eating food I shouldn't. I can't seem to say NO, thus putting others' feelings ahead of my own. This has been an issue for me for all of my adult life, and for as much of my childhood as I can remember. That is not how I got started on this overweight life, but it certainly hasn't helped me much along the weight-loss journey.
But I have discovered that some of the SP habits I've learned are now ingrained. I track my food and exercise, no matter how tired I am. I do my ten minutes of exercise even if it means I'm doing it in bed, just before falling asleep. I at least plan out food choices when I'm not eating at home, even if I do not stick to them once the eating has started. Unfortunately, I've also learned that bitter grief is a big appetite killer. And I'm at the beginning stage of having my immediate family help me make choices, which has been a long hard battle. I realize that I have to take care of myself, and if I don't, I have no one else to blame but myself.
The next challenge will start soon. I feel better prepared for it than I have for the two previous ones ~ I'm looking at it as a chance to reinforce what I've already learned, not as a huge obstacle to overcome. I didn't lose the pounds I had hoped to lose, but I did lose a few, so that is a good sign. I have the feeling this journey is always going to be hard for me, that I'm going to have a lot more set-backs and mountains to overcome before I reach goal. But I also learned that Rome wasn't built in a day, and I've got the rest of my now-healthier life to continue to improve. SO BRING IT ON!!