Friday, May 31, 2013
So I had such a good day today, I weighed in at 241.4 so that means I lost 4.1 lbs since last weigh in on 5/24. I had so much energy jus happy and bouncing off the walls. Cashed my check and paid some bills and was jus over all a good day. I even managed to drink a whole gallon of water before I left work at 4!
I was jus so happy. Like nothin would knock me down. My boss even gave me a great complement about how I look so far.
Then I got home.......
I swear sometimes men pms worse than females.
My boyfriend was in such a bad mood that we ended up in kinda a argument. He yelled I fussed then he jus decided to ignore me and go to sleep
And that RUINED my mood COMPLETELY.
It's crazy how the person you love the most has the ability to affect your mood so completely.
Now I know I'm hungry and I'm going to fix me some dinner, and I jus barely caught myself. I was going to indulge and binge. I still feel the urge to. Why is it that emotional eating is so addictive and so hard to fight. I stopped and I am jus fixing a lean pocket and some broccoli with cheese but still, I wanted to fix 2-3 lean pockets. I wanted a sandwich and some fried chicken.
Now I realized that I was jus trying to eat emotionally while crying and pouting. I'm praying I can resist the whole time. The rational logical part of me thinks that's ridiculous, the whole me wanting to emotionally eat concept. But the regular part of me says go ahead it will make you feel better. Even though it never really does make me feel better. And I had been doing so well all week with that too. I hadn't over indulged. No binges, only eating righ and small proper portions and everything.
Hopefully I can stay strong and not mess it up.
How can one lil argument ruin my day and my great mood so easily??
I have to keep in mind that 1. Food won't make it better 2. I will tell worse if I ruin the progress I've made so far 3. Over eating will really make my tummy miserable 4. All couples have bad days
Ok now to jus breathe *inhale*exhale*
Maybe I can sneak out for a run and that will make me feel better