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Scheduling Fitness & Fun despite the negativity.

Friday, May 31, 2013

Happy Friday & Happy last day of May! This was another short week at work which is nice - but I can't believe it is Friday already!

For about 4 years now, I carry a planner with me. Every day I write down what I did that day, when I worked, and what I have planned for the future. It is fun to look back and see everything I have done over the past year. For a while, I had a lot of exercise written down. Then I had tax season which didn't allow me a lot of extra time. After that ended - I had a lot of social plans & planning! Basically I just had a lot of reasons AND excuses as to why I didn't exercise as much. Now it is almost summer time - tomorrow is June 1st! Yikes!

I am going through and scheduling my exercise in my planner for June! I think having the times and places down in pencil will help me stay focused. If I see it - it will remind me to DO IT! Zumba is M & Th and Kickboxing I could do any night M-F but I need to register for that. The Zumba shoes I ordered online don't fit =( So I have to send them back again. I should go to another shoe store, but I feel like putting on shoes for 2 minutes doesn't give me enough time! I like ordering them online because I can jump around on the carpet for 2 hours and see how they feel without having them get messed up.

There was an online deal for 10 cardio kickboxing classes I just purchased. I really wanted to sign up for a 20-class deal at a closer location, but they only have morning classes. With my work schedule - I need evening classes 6:30pm or later! I am nervous about the class, but I feel like I need to do it. I lost so much weight, but my stomach is still so flubby! The extra flub didn't bother me this much before - but now that I know I won't lose much more weight with diet alone.. I feel so yucky! I hate the stretch marks and the extra skin/fat. The workout clothes make me bulge like crazy!

Maybe this kickboxing class will help get me motivated & will help with the extra weight I want to lose. The first one I am going to is 6/11! I would do it earlier, but I don't have time before I go away with my family! I am excited about our trip to Williamsburg next week!

Over the past year I have become positive. I try to be positive when I can, but I can't do it 100% of the time even if I try. Negativity is creeping everywhere. Even when people say "You look great, you don't need to lose weight" - it makes me feel worse. I know what I look like under my clothes. I know what I am feeling inside. They don't! My comparison pictures help motivate me to keep pushing forward, but I still get sad, frustrated, upset, and mad at life sometimes. I just need to keep reminding myself that I am a good person - I am in control of some of my life - I can't control Everything, but I do have the chance to be the better person! Every minute counts!

Over the past year, I have noticed that I go out of my way to try and make plans with my friends. Maybe I miss them more than they miss me? I just realize that if I don't call or text them, I won't see them. Everyone is busy with their own lives, but I feel like people never go out of their way to invite Me to do things. If I don't plan, I won't hear from people for months. Sometimes I try and see how long it will be before someone asks me to do something - but then I get lonely! So when I feel down, I just look back in my planner and see all of the fun stuff I did and what I have planned.

I am on this weight loss journey for me. If I eat french fries, oh well. It doesn't cause me to fail at life as long as I keep pushing forward! We all have good times and bad times. I love Spark, because I know everyone has some kind of idea of how hard it is to reach our goals! It takes a lot of time, effort, and support. Even if we just support our own ideas, it still counts!

Hopefully everyone has an awesome weekend no matter what you are doing - working, fun, fitness. Do the best you can & keep your head up!

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LYNSEY723 6/3/2013 1:06PM

    You are doing so great! Keep your head up and keep pushing!

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EATVEGAN 6/2/2013 12:33AM

    I have to admire you for being organized and using a planner. Sounds like you're having fun with Zumba and I think you'll like kick-boxing. You're making some good plans. emoticon

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LIVINGFREE19 6/1/2013 11:11PM

    Keeping a planner is what I do too, it is necessary for me!

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OVERACTIVEELBOW 6/1/2013 11:02AM

    Making dates with yourself ... it really works to help keep your focus on your goals.
Audra

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SUSIQZER 6/1/2013 7:32AM

    I love using my calendar as a training tool! Great work!!



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FUSIONFITNESS3 6/1/2013 2:07AM

    Love how you're penciling in your workouts. It exactly what I've been doing this last year and it's made such a difference for me.
While I'm here I want to let you know that I have thought a lot about you these last couple of weeks and I'm sure you're wondering why. Well, last Sunday I ran my first 5 km race in our community and you were one of my biggest inspirations here at Spark for getting into running. Thanks Kimpy for inspiring me.
Maria

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NIELSENSLADY 6/1/2013 12:40AM

    I would say devote time to do more Strength Training which might encourage your skin to tighten better if that is the issue or if its some kind of residual fat, then ST would resolve that too.

I guess with big weight loss can mean extra skin. I certainly dread the thought of extra skin too. I have 120 lbs to lose.

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123ELAINE456 5/31/2013 11:53PM

  Great Blog.
I love how you use a Planner and plans things to keep you on track. Looking back through it give you ideas of doing things again that You like. The Kickboxing Class sounds like it could be fun. You are doing Great. Keep Your Positive Attitude and Outlook and You Will be Fine. Keep Pushing Forward. You Can Do It. God Blessings to You and Everyone. Have a Delightful Fun Day. Take Care. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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123ELAINE456 5/31/2013 11:53PM

  Great Blog.
I love how you use a Planner and plans things to keep you on track. Looking back through it give you ideas of doing things again that You like. The Kickboxing Class sounds like it could be fun. You are doing Great. Keep Your Positive Attitude and Outlook and You Will be Fine. Keep Pushing Forward. You Can Do It. God Blessings to You and Everyone. Have a Delightful Fun Day. Take Care. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SNOWYOGA 5/31/2013 11:43PM

    I like your positive attitude emoticon and hope you get the right shoe (size) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LJR4HEALTH 5/31/2013 10:11PM

    Love the idea of a planner to keep you on track

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LIVINHEALTHY9 5/31/2013 9:09PM

    The kickboxing class sounds fun. Don't be nervous, you'll do wonderful.

You are doing great, so keep thinking positive. Your enthusiasm is contagious to all who read your blog.

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KALISWALKER 5/31/2013 7:09PM

    Your friends probably like that you are the 'socialable one', the 'organizer'. However it wouldn't hurt to add some new friends.

Don't be down on yourself because you are not positive 100% of the time. It's impossible, no one could be.

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DWSCHUYLER 5/31/2013 4:53PM

    Keep that positive attitude! Make it about you. emoticon

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HHB4181 5/31/2013 3:45PM

    Great blog! I know what you mean about not liking your body. My husband tells me all the time that I need to have more confidence in myself, but I don't.

I also feel like I'm the 'planner' in my groups of friends. I've had people say to me several times, "If it's wasn't for Holly, we'd never see each other." For a little while it bothered me, but I guess that's just the way it is. There could be worse jobs.




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EJENKINSB 5/31/2013 3:29PM

    I love the idea of going back through your planner and seeing all that you've done in the past week, month, or year. Great idea! You have an amazing attitude...even though you're feeling negative right now, know that you're really inspiring to so many people. :)

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CMCGRUN 5/31/2013 2:52PM

    Awwww, thanks for this post. I really hope you meet your goals. Your hints and encouraging really help me. Don't be too hard on yourself, you have accomplished so much! Thanks for the day planner idea too. I'm going to try it!

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RACEWELLWON 5/31/2013 2:18PM

    Oh no the shoes again emoticon incredible , do have a Fleet Feet by you ? They have shoes for every occasion as far as fitness. Kickboxing sounds like fun, enjoy. I don't know Kim about your friends - perhaps your just better at planning outings and coming up with new ideas - Have a good weekend - Hugs K

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KONRAD695 5/31/2013 1:33PM

    You know, I Think You're emoticon

Many of us have stories with many parallels. It take about 3 months for my friends to check on me. They use the "well you're married and have two kids". That's all the more reason to check in, because my mind might be elsewhere. And guess what, it's still me making plans. I don't go as elaborate as your parties, but you get what I mean.

As far as weight loss. I'm so with you on that one. I lost my weight, have a healthy rage BMI/ fat %, but it still isn't what I want. Yes it is good enough, yes it does feel good, yes I look fine, no it's not enough yet FOR ME. I can see me with a shirt off, touch the loose skin, and feel the muscles not quite supportive all the way.

Now there are people telling me not to do anymore. Your so skinny. I'm 6'1" and 180 lbs with a runners frame. There are even some who have asked my coworkers behind my back "is he sick", "what's wrong with Konrad", "he's lost too much weight". Forget them.

Didn't intend for this to be a "ME" blog. Just want you to know. You are in mutual company. I think your great, I think you look wonderful, and I think you should exercise as much as you want too. If we are ever by each other, I'll exercise with you. And we can compare bellies afterward.

So, hang in there. Do what you want. Don't let their opinions even touch you.
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KAPELAKIN 5/31/2013 1:20PM

    You're doing great! I've heard that it just takes time for loose skin to tighten back up to fit your new body better. Building muscle certainly can't hurt, and I'm sure kickboxing would do just that. Have a great weekend!
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DALID414 5/31/2013 1:09PM

    Happy Friday!
Trying to stay positive is better than a full blown negativity tantrum. emoticon

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