Happy Friday & Happy last day of May! This was another short week at work which is nice - but I can't believe it is Friday already!
For about 4 years now, I carry a planner with me. Every day I write down what I did that day, when I worked, and what I have planned for the future. It is fun to look back and see everything I have done over the past year. For a while, I had a lot of exercise written down. Then I had tax season which didn't allow me a lot of extra time. After that ended - I had a lot of social plans & planning! Basically I just had a lot of reasons AND excuses as to why I didn't exercise as much. Now it is almost summer time - tomorrow is June 1st! Yikes!
I am going through and scheduling my exercise in my planner for June! I think having the times and places down in pencil will help me stay focused. If I see it - it will remind me to DO IT! Zumba is M & Th and Kickboxing I could do any night M-F but I need to register for that. The Zumba shoes I ordered online don't fit =( So I have to send them back again. I should go to another shoe store, but I feel like putting on shoes for 2 minutes doesn't give me enough time! I like ordering them online because I can jump around on the carpet for 2 hours and see how they feel without having them get messed up.
There was an online deal for 10 cardio kickboxing classes I just purchased. I really wanted to sign up for a 20-class deal at a closer location, but they only have morning classes. With my work schedule - I need evening classes 6:30pm or later! I am nervous about the class, but I feel like I need to do it. I lost so much weight, but my stomach is still so flubby! The extra flub didn't bother me this much before - but now that I know I won't lose much more weight with diet alone.. I feel so yucky! I hate the stretch marks and the extra skin/fat. The workout clothes make me bulge like crazy!
Maybe this kickboxing class will help get me motivated & will help with the extra weight I want to lose. The first one I am going to is 6/11! I would do it earlier, but I don't have time before I go away with my family! I am excited about our trip to Williamsburg next week!
Over the past year I have become positive. I try to be positive when I can, but I can't do it 100% of the time even if I try. Negativity is creeping everywhere. Even when people say "You look great, you don't need to lose weight" - it makes me feel worse. I know what I look like under my clothes. I know what I am feeling inside. They don't! My comparison pictures help motivate me to keep pushing forward, but I still get sad, frustrated, upset, and mad at life sometimes. I just need to keep reminding myself that I am a good person - I am in control of some of my life - I can't control Everything, but I do have the chance to be the better person! Every minute counts!
Over the past year, I have noticed that I go out of my way to try and make plans with my friends. Maybe I miss them more than they miss me? I just realize that if I don't call or text them, I won't see them. Everyone is busy with their own lives, but I feel like people never go out of their way to invite Me to do things. If I don't plan, I won't hear from people for months. Sometimes I try and see how long it will be before someone asks me to do something - but then I get lonely! So when I feel down, I just look back in my planner and see all of the fun stuff I did and what I have planned.
I am on this weight loss journey for me. If I eat french fries, oh well. It doesn't cause me to fail at life as long as I keep pushing forward! We all have good times and bad times. I love Spark, because I know everyone has some kind of idea of how hard it is to reach our goals! It takes a lot of time, effort, and support. Even if we just support our own ideas, it still counts!
Hopefully everyone has an awesome weekend no matter what you are doing - working, fun, fitness. Do the best you can & keep your head up!