Friday, May 31, 2013
+ so yesterday wasn't a very fun day for me. i did my best to give myself postive messages, but those horrible 'you're so fat!' thoughts floated in the back of my head all day. i ended up eating some chocolate.. at least it was high quality, vegan dark chocolate, and it was delicious. i just felt like i needed to have a little treat.
+ i think part of the reason why i was so upset yesterday was because on some level, i still think that i'll be able to spend time losing the weight, and then i'll magically be done. i know that isn't true, and i will always need to keep active and eat healthy. i know i still need to be at this a year from now, 5 years from now. i need to to change my way of thinking.
+ the good news is that i was so upset/stubborn, that i decided to hop on my bike last night, and see how far i could get if i peddled for an hour straight. i made it 14K in 54 mins. my longest ride of the season so far. i have no doubt that i'll be able to nail my planned 15K's on monday now. then i'll start practising for 20K's. the good news is that hubby has been super supportive of my biking, he even cleaned up the kitchen and watched the kids last night so that i could get an earlier start. he's also offered to help me plan routes.