Thursday, May 30, 2013
I've slowly seen my weight creep up over the past year (actually, ever since I got married 7 years ago) and have been in complete denial about it. So much so that I've frequently taken pregnancy tests, trying to convince myself that maybe I'm gaining extra weight because there's a bun in the oven. Nope, that's not the reason for my weight gain. I've also had my thyroid checked...luckily I'm in good shape there. So, it's time to face the firing squad. Yes, now that I'm in my 30s, I've definitely noticed a slowing of my metabolism. It's not a myth. I swear, if I look at a cupcake, I gain 5 lbs....ok, maybe not true, but it definitely feels like it. Unfortunately, I have to be real with myself: bad eating habits and lack of exercise (on top of lack of sleep, stress at work, and long work hours) have been the main contributors to my weight gain. Being in the healthcare profession and once a very energetic fitness instructor, I know what to do but I'm just not doing it. I'm at the heaviest I've ever been and I do not feel comfortable in my own skin. I look at my family tree and pray that I can break the cycle of obesity. I also want to be a role model to the people I see in the hospital and clinics. Lastly, I just want to feel like my old self again: happy and confident.
I've told myself many times in the past that "today is the day that I will lose the weight", but so far, I've been unsuccessful. How will today be different than the many other failed attempts? Because I want to do this...I want to prove to myself that I can set a goal and reach it. Hell, I've been successful at this many times in my professional life so I KNOW that I can do it! It's time to focus on my personal life....time to focus on me. One day at a time; one foot in front of the other; time to crawl before I walk.
This is going to be a long and hard road, but the good thing is that it's doable. Thank goodness SparkPeople can turn this arduous task into something fun and enjoyable. I'm actually looking forward to this go 'round. If I can do this, than I know for sure ANYONE can!