Thursday, May 30, 2013
Well for breakfast i ended up having a juice. i just couldnt stomach doing some kind of ground turkey skillet from scratch that early. I blended a whole avocado plus some hemp protein powder and spirulina into the juice. I know it wasn't the best choice and i dont plan to make a habit of it. i also had a few almonds.
for lunch i made turkey burgers and sweet potato fries. I realized half way through that i should have had more veggies but i did have veggie juice for breakfast so - whatever i guess.
for dinner i made chicken marinaded in a paleo ranch seasoning. I didn't like it too much. I have never been a big fan of herbs. Plus i went a little heavy on the cayenne. We also had roasted spears of zucchini and carrot with olive oil, paprika and garlic salt. it was all meh.
i had a little bit of watermelon. I'm told on the whole9 forum that i should leave the fruit alone. i must be experiencing the kill all the things phase because i cant help feeling like these people just want to suck all the joy out of life. my instinct is to rebel. i dont like restrictions! But my rebellions don't ever do anything except sabotage myself. So I'm resisting. I think I'm just touchy.
I still have this freaking headache and I'm over it! And i dont think i ate enough today but im tired of thinking about food. i may have some banana and nuts when chris gets home from the store. I'm still paranoid about everything i do. If i have a snack of banana and almond butter am i ruining everything? Will i burn fat efficiently? Whats the best choice? Am i going to lose weight? too much oil? is the oil more or less than a "thumb" each meal? not enough veg? too much starchy veg? its really tough to live inside my head. feel sorry for my husband. he gets the worst of it. i asked about all this on the whole9 forums too and i dont know how helpful it was.
by the way, just because im essentially whining here doesnt mean i dont think the program will be effective. i still have an open mind. im just over-thinking everything as usual. its just kinda my thing, you know? Its only day 4. I know i cant expect unicorns and rainbows yet. there are just the things swirling round my head today.
I'm going to an interval strength training class with my friend tomorrow. it will be the most intense workout ive had in a looooooooooooooooooooooong time. I really hope the headache lets up.
i swear i dont hate my life! im just cranky.