This is probably my third attempt at sparkpeople. It's not that the site isn't great or that I didn't have any friends - on the contrary, I met a lot of wonderful people through the years. The first time I used this site was in 2009 then in 2011 and here we are: 2013.
I get bored easily and my main problem is ACCOUNTABILITY. I have ZERO.
I've gotten encouragement, I've got positive vibes and all sorts of advice. But the thing is, when you're not ready for all that encouragement, all that vibe and advice goes one ear and out the other.
Excuses get in the way of triumph and fear gets in the way of everything else.
and then something like LIFE happens.........now, I have this tiny almost fifteen month old who wants to be EXACTLY LIKE ME. Me, who isn't a fan of veggies. Me, who drinks and drinks i-don't-even-know-how-much of coke.
I eat without thinking and one day, SOMETHING happened.
As I ate my sandwich, I took a tomato out and ate without it. Her little hand took her own little sandwich and looked for that little tomato and threw it away (ok, so it was more like - she threw the entire sandwich away on the floor, but you get the idea)........
I have an OBSERVER. I have this tiny mini-me who wants to be EXACTLY LIKE ME....and aside from being the awesome mom that I think I am ;-) I've put that idea into her little head. Whenever we go out anywhere, I always make sure we wear the same color scheme...or style. She is my first baby after all.
In wanting to have a mini-me, I didn't expect that she would do EVERYTHING JUST LIKE MOMMY........I know, what a duh, moment!
She is the love of my life and I can't imagine not living for her. And that's just the thing......after my husband sighed and I gave her another little sandwich piece, I took the tomato and ate a small part of it........I offered the other piece and she ate it without hesitation!
She is my world and I am hers, simple as that.
And I am slowly killing myself in her world. What would her life be like without mommy? Even now, I'm tearing up just thinking about it.
So I am here, again. Third time but this time, with a tiny but fierce purpose.
and here is my dinner pic (mac and cheese WITH veggies: carrots and peas.....hey! its a start)