Thursday, May 30, 2013
Lately I have been feeling very tired and down. Had some bloodwork done and I am low on iron and my hemoglobin is low. I'm on iron pills now and am feeling a little energy creep back into me. Still feeling down because I'm too tired to exercise, and when I'm tired i eat like crazy. I've gained 4 lbs over the last two weeks. Tomorrow is supposed to be a nice day so I'm hoping to get out for a walk. We finally have some warm weather here in Ontario. I'm trying to focus on the present and only the present. The past has some bad stuff around this time of year, but this summer is going to be a great summer. I must be positive. I get embarrassed when I go outside in the summer because I can't hide under layers of clothes. I feel like everyone is judging me. My parents bug me all the time about how I look, my hair, my weight, my choice in clothes and the list goes on. I had them out of my life for 10 peaceful years but got weak and let them back into my life about 6 years ago. I regret it now, but my daughter is close to them and I don't want to take them away from her.
Today is really emotional for me for so many reasons. Depression, family, the past, and much more. Thanks for letting me vent.