Thursday, May 30, 2013
Im 23 years old and I have been big all my life, NEVER this big though. 3 years ago I lost 70 lbs in 3 short months, I worked my butt off cardio twice a day, walked 10 miles a day and lifted weights for an hour a day. EVERYDAY. I never hit the 199 mark at that point though I lost the 70 lbs and then started working gained 40 of it back. THEN 2 years ago, I started riding my bike hours and hours of just going I lost 45 lbs and got just under 200 lbs, I loved it I fealt healthier better and the fact that I could ride a bike uphill without feeling like I was going to pass out was a good enough reward itself. But then my fiancÚ and I decided to travel the country, first lived in Montana then Tennessee and many other places which led to living on a sailboat in south florida.. There is where I gained most the weight over the past 2 years and now here I am AGAIN miserable not finding clothes to fit me right and I'm even embarrassed to go outside and bed seen. My body has changed so many times./. This is what I see in the future if I don't change I see nothing, I big blank whole, I don't see a beautiful wedding or a family to raise. I don't see happiness and I know that if I don't do it now, I wont ever do it. I am young, no excuses and though I am scared of failing AGAIN I would rather fail trying over and over again then just give up. This is my life and Im ready to take control right now.