Thursday, May 30, 2013
Yepp, they're here for a visit. Luckily I'm only munching on healthy things like apples, unsweetened apple sauce, popcorn and the like. Yet I feel so hungry again. Drinking water doesn't help.
I'm actually contemplating if I should change to maintenance, you know take a 4 week break or so from trying to loose it and focus on healthy habits, take things a bit easier and you're allowed to eat a bit more which might help with not feeling so hungry. Parts of me though still wants to get rid of that fat and also finally say good bye to 72kg and hello to 70kg. Another part of me knows that I have never ever maintained, either I still wanted to loose more but just could not or didn't care and gained weight. I'm at a weight I'm quite happy with, I feel confident, so way not focus on shaping up, building muscles and really focus on a healthy lifestyle instead of loosing it. Then another part thinks, that the hope to loose some more each week would just not be able to be switched off.... you know what I mean??? Officially I say: "I maintain" yet subconsciously I think: "I show you, I can still loose even if I maintain". Doesn't make sense I know... I'm really not saying that I quit, not that you think,... do I make any sense????
And despite the winter blues, which doesn't really help to feel and be energized and active (sigh) I am grateful for the rain. While offspring #1 was in re primary and offspring #2 slept for his afternoon nap I snuggled up in my blanket on the couch, read a good book and just enjoyed it. So, even though rain can make me down and low at times, today it was wonderful... but boy was I glad I didn't really have to go outside most of the day...