Thursday, May 30, 2013
Okay, so I have started the process again, to change my life and my habits. Everyone asks what "diet" i am doing. I know the response should be, I am not on a diet, I can changing my life. But...how can I honestly say that. This is the fourth time I had "done" spark people, I have "done" weight watchers three times in my life. All of those times I was able to get close to my goal and looked pretty good....losing 25-30 pounds, and yet it always comes back. What will be different this time....how can I tell myself I will stick to it.
The bottom line is I have no choice to believe I can do it. I am developing health conditions because of my weight. I weigh as much now as I did before I delivered my first child....yes...while I was still pregnant with him. None of my summer clothes fit well, and I have very few that fit at all. I don't have the money for all the prescriptions and new clothes and doctors visits to accompany the problems from my weight, so I just have to do it. I can not think to myself, I'll try again. I have to just do it. Ugghhh......I know my friends and family think, here she goes again. I know my husband wants the best for me...yet was annoyed when I mentioned I was hungry last night but had filled up my range.
So, yes world, here I go again...and I will stick to it. And if I start to falter, hold me accountable....but don't discount my efforts because I have done this seven times before. You wouldn't tell a marathon runner they shouldn't try the seventh race because they didnt finish the first seven. You wouldnt tell your child to not study for the SATs because they didnt do well the first few times. So please world, give those of us who have trouble with our weight the benefit of the doubt and support us and not remind us of the other times we failed.