Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Today is the first day of my journey. Well, it started a while back but this is the day that I finally say.."I can." not.."I want to" or "I hope that I will...." but "I can." So much in my life was done to me, against me or simply taken from me without my permission or my ability to stop it. I lost more than just my pride at heartless words and angry hands but I lost my hope, my self worth and my identity. I became simply..a shell. I have learned over the last six years that my life isn't just a series of hits and pain, of threats and of being then end result of a bad day. It's a gift..one I have squandered (that is so hard for me to say). I just turned 40 and it's really really hard. I don't really KNOW why it is, but it is. So..today I truly, once and for all, take my life back. Will I stumble? Probably, but I can do this. I will do this..not just for my children but finally...I will do it for myself.