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@Highest weight Ever. Talk about discouraged.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

I went to my primary care Dr today because my fibro has been kicking my butt. As usual I weighed in. The scale read: 170.4 I cried. 170.4

That number is my sign that something has got to change. Another sign is that in the past 6 weeks I have gained 6 lbs. A lb week....OUCH emoticon emoticon

I Have allowed my fibro be my reason to not exercise. Granted I can't do an hour a day but I can work my way up to 30 minutes. I just have to start. I have to find my want to. It seems to be broken. I have given up.

What's really crazy is that my Binge eating isn't even the issue. I haven't binged in awhile. (about a month)...(major progress for me) I just have not been making the healthiest choices. I am a carbaholic. I've been depressed for a while and I crave carbs like an addict craves his or her drug of choice.

My mind has got to be renewed. I have to get focused and motivated. I have to WANT the change. Why I can't find it I am not sure. I have been focusing on other areas of decluttering my life, so that is progress. Perhaps now is the time to focus on my weight and fitness.

I did get a new bathing suit this month and I look pretty good despite the weight. Can't wait to hit the beach or the pool! emoticon emoticon

It's time to take action, develop a plan and follow the plan to the best of my ability expecting a few bumps in the rd. No one ever said this journey would be easy.

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  • LINDAF49
    Plan those meals and good-for-you snacks ahead of time... record EVERY BITE for an intro time and yes, start exercise slow but steady...I started with an elliptical literally 3 minutes at a time x3 days then increased it one minute at a a time every three days... so I know little increments do build up to big numbers.
    Plan your day, plan rewards, do the plan and DO THE REWARDS too ...I got a new digital scale for my kitchen and one for my body in the bathroom as my first reward just for writing out my plan and sharing it with Spark buddies ...Then every evening, spend 5 minutes evaluating what you did positive, make notes and plan tomorrow ...'
    emoticon One day at a time, sweet Jesus, that's all I'm asking of you ...strength for today ...to do what I have to do....
    Hugs and prayers! Linda in Washington state

    1745 days ago
    emoticon Hang in! What goes up, will come down!

    1755 days ago
    Don't let yourself get discouraged, keep pushing forward. I know its hard, Heaven knows I used my MS and tiredness long enough until now, but You Can Do This! Keep your focus on how you want to look, visualize and pray your way through, one day at a time. emoticon
    1757 days ago
    I'm sorry that you are struggling with fibro pain right now. I'll be saying some prayers that you can refocus on your health. One good choice at a time and you'll make progress. Hang in there!

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    1758 days ago
    emoticon I am at my top number emoticon also.....my excuse if working evening shift, night, night, evening, evening ....my body does not like the switching back and forth....
    But, as you say develop a plan and START emoticon
    1758 days ago
    The beach and pool might be a good place to get in a little exercise for you. The water will make movements low-impact and provide a little resistance.

    I know what it's like to be in pain and to see the scale go up. The pain makes things much more challenging but I believe you'll find something that works for you.

    Your doctor might be able to suggest some gentle activities until you get a better handle on the pain. There may even be some fibro support groups in the area that can offer helpful information and "support" from others going through the similar challenges.

    Wishing you much success!
    1758 days ago
    1758 days ago
    How are you doing with the smoking? I told you I'd check in and doing so. Have a good day.
    1758 days ago
    Slow and steady as they say. That's funny I crave carbs all the time. I almost believe that they make me feel better. That is definitely not right. Oh we'll moving on. Let's get together on this journey!

    1758 days ago
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