Wednesday, May 29, 2013
I went to my primary care Dr today because my fibro has been kicking my butt. As usual I weighed in. The scale read: 170.4 I cried. 170.4
That number is my sign that something has got to change. Another sign is that in the past 6 weeks I have gained 6 lbs. A lb week....OUCH
I Have allowed my fibro be my reason to not exercise. Granted I can't do an hour a day but I can work my way up to 30 minutes. I just have to start. I have to find my want to. It seems to be broken. I have given up.
What's really crazy is that my Binge eating isn't even the issue. I haven't binged in awhile. (about a month)...(major progress for me) I just have not been making the healthiest choices. I am a carbaholic. I've been depressed for a while and I crave carbs like an addict craves his or her drug of choice.
My mind has got to be renewed. I have to get focused and motivated. I have to WANT the change. Why I can't find it I am not sure. I have been focusing on other areas of decluttering my life, so that is progress. Perhaps now is the time to focus on my weight and fitness.
I did get a new bathing suit this month and I look pretty good despite the weight. Can't wait to hit the beach or the pool!
It's time to take action, develop a plan and follow the plan to the best of my ability expecting a few bumps in the rd. No one ever said this journey would be easy.