Wednesday, May 29, 2013
I sit here, just basking in several wonderful emotions: relief, triumph, and zen-like calm.
Relief: Although my husband is hitting another bad patch with his medical issues, I have managed to hold things together. Still reading with the kids and hugging them tightly. Still cooking well and not binge-eating. Still went to tae kwon do last night and let my entire body vent out all the negativity. I CAN handle this.
Triumph: Last night, before I fell asleep, I let my hand rest on my hipbone. The bone of my hip, hollowed in front, strong, fit, my own body returning to a shape I haven't seen in years. This morning, although I knew that a scale-check after a hard workout usually produces a higher number, I just had to see. And I'm glad I looked! I am down 5.2 pounds since May 13. I am finally back in my maintenance range. I made the Spark Solution's protein pancakes for breakfast, packed a wonderful salad for lunch, kissed my children, and we set off for our day.
Calm: And now I'm calm, at peace, loving my body, and surrounding myself with positive messages. My husband said some harsh things last night, and I will write them where they belong and put them away. Because, here and now, God has blessed me in so many ways that I just want to sit back and appreciate my life.