suffering for my actions
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
I've been eating clean for about 10 months now and feeling great. This weekend I went to visit a friend in Milan and decided to let go a bit. I drank wine, ate pizza, more wine, ice cream, basically whatever I wanted.
Yikes! I felt like crap for two days and am only today recovering from the alcohol/ sugar induced headache. What boggles my mind is that this kind of behavior used to be normal for me?!? Was I living in some kind of zombie state? I remember in the old days having headaches, aches and pains, tightness in my chest, wheezing, etc.
What's clear to me today is that these are MEMORIES. I don't live like that anymore. I don't feel like that anymore and I will NEVER GO BACK THERE! I deserve better than that. I deserve to feel good, great even. I deserve to feel the way I do when I eat clean.