Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Up. Or down. I don't know. Down in a good way I guess! I am so close to my goal, but I can't pull it together. I don't know what my deal is. I casually mentioned it to my husband and his response was that I don't have any motivation pushing me now. He said that it worked out well the first time because I had motivation to fit into my matron of honor dress at my sister's wedding. Technically he is right. I told myself, and continue to tell myself, that I also wanted to get healthy and that is my motivation. I do want to get healthy. But my ultimate motivator was that super expensive dress didn't fit and there were no other options. I had to make it fit. It seems that just getting healthier isn't enough of a motivator at the moment. Sad, but true. Life's little stresses have taken over and conquered any motivation that I have mustered. Granted, this is the most stressful time of the school year. Still, that shouldn't be an excuse.
Luckily, I find jogging to be a huge stress reliever so I have managed to maintain that. I went for 3 jogs last week and they were each better than the last. I can't believe how I feel about jogging. I am thankful to have it as an outlet, but never would have seen me as a jogger!
Now I just need to tackle my unhealthy choices. I need to do some thinking. Deep thinking. Soul searching. I need to think about what really matters to me and why. I need to come up with a plan. I need to think on it. Not rush straight into trying something now. Starting something now. I need to focus my energy somehow. I need to motivate myself. I can't let my husband be right...I can find my motivators.
As Winnie the Pooh says, "think, think, think". Pooh feels the same pull for honey as I do for my fav foods! My problem is that I don't just want a smackerel...I want the whole honey pot!