Tuesday, May 28, 2013
I seem to have really settled in to the low 180's. for awhile this was really frustrating me, because my goal is closer to the high 160's.
I am comfortable, I am reasonably happy with the way I look.
I am not 100% happy and do want to lose the other 10-15 lbs.
I think I need too.
That said, do I want to lose it enough to put the effort in?
You see somewhere, with out meaning to, I slipped into maintenance.
I did not fall of the wagon. I have not the minimum exercise, and not kept my calories within weight loss mode.
This is not to say I gave up. I have still been putting in the effort needed not to re-gain.
The good news is that I am confident that I can keep up that lifestyle. This is a little reassuring to me, if I don't drop the ball I can keep the weight off. (I have been terrified of re-gain)
Back to the original question. "That said, do I want to lose it (the last 15lbs or so) enough to put the effort in?
The answer is "Not right now, but hopefully soon".
I feel like it had been taking a lot out of me just to keep up.
I simply do not Want to push myself and put in the extra effort needed to go back to "weight loss" mode.
I do hope that soon, I will be motivated and energized enough to push, but in the mean time I think there is nothing wrong with staying where I am.
I need be vigilant however, I need to daily remember that "maintaining" is not "stopping" and that if I stop trying altogether I will re-gain.
So while I may be less active here on Spark right now, I have not left my friends. I still log on daily and track my exercise. I am just backing down a bit while I prepare my metal and physical forces for that final push.
I think training for the 5k (my first) in August is going to help with that anyway.