Tuesday, May 28, 2013
At the picnic there were some major victories:
1. I did NOT eat everything that was offered.
2. I took "No Thank You" servings.
3. I did not clean my plate.
Normally I would be tempted to have a little bit of everything. Thankfully my palate has changed. I observed a young man who has autism, he was obsessed with the popcorn. If the bowl was moved to another table he moved with it. I could see bits of myself, and the power that food has had over me. There was only one offering that I felt compelled to have seconds and thirds. It was over what I would call junk food. It offered everything I desire. A salty cracker sandwich with chocolate filled caramel center. Thankfully I was able to stop, I told my table mates that I was obsessed with the cracker sandwiches like the young man was with the popcorn. They all laughed, but seriously it wasn't really all that funny. It was a sad but honest statement of truth. He could not stop until the popcorn was gone. Usually that is my signal to stop also. That young man helped to make my desire wane before the container was emptied. Seeing my behavior in another is an eye opener. Was I really like that. Yes.
Learning to stop is a major triumph for me.