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Monday, May 27, 2013

I am trying to not be angry at myself right now. Instead of continuing to attempt to enjoy this binge I got started, I am finding myself being ripped away. It's hard.. I rarely have time alone at home, and that tends to make me want to stuff my face with whatever I want. Nobody can see now. I don't have to feel ashamed.

Except I do. I feel ashamed of myself, and I can't tune that out anymore. It's frustrating, but also empowering. It all started because after all the overindulgence and getting distracted on YouTube, I realized that I needed to at least track my food. So I came to SP. I decided to break the silence by putting on SP Radio. What the hell, it might make me feel better.

It did! I still feel the regret and guilt, but I'm going to go get dressed and go for a jog. I haven't been since Sunday. LAST Sunday. I feel horrible about that, too. Only one way to fix that. And I know I will feel better, during and after. Actually, I already do, just from thinking about it. I'll be back... :)
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    Thank you! Yes, external motivation made a huge difference.

    That's a really good idea, putting on SP radio or another inspirational podcast (inside out weight loss is awesome too) when I'm alone. I will do that next time. I have a feeling I'll feel deprived and frustrated at first, but much less so with myself in the long run.

    Wow, thank you for sharing all that with me.. I am looking forward to checking them out when I can!
    1733 days ago
    Welcome to the spark Blog-o-sphere dearie!

    Binge eating is a problem that many of us encounter.

    MANDELOVICH and 4A-HEALTHY-BM have some great blogs about their experiences and what works for them in that respect.

    Here are some others who have "sparked" me and taught me a thing or two over the last year:


    I could add many more to that list!

    I'm MIA for the rest of the day, but will check in later today!


    Have a great day and keep ...

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    1733 days ago
    Sometimes we need to find the external motivation that will help light our internal motivation for us to do what we want to be doing. Now that you know sparkradio helps you, when you know you're going to be alone for awhile maybe the first thing you should do is turn it on.
    1734 days ago
    Good for you!!! Great job turning things around!

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    1734 days ago
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