Monday, May 27, 2013
I am trying to not be angry at myself right now. Instead of continuing to attempt to enjoy this binge I got started, I am finding myself being ripped away. It's hard.. I rarely have time alone at home, and that tends to make me want to stuff my face with whatever I want. Nobody can see now. I don't have to feel ashamed.
Except I do. I feel ashamed of myself, and I can't tune that out anymore. It's frustrating, but also empowering. It all started because after all the overindulgence and getting distracted on YouTube, I realized that I needed to at least track my food. So I came to SP. I decided to break the silence by putting on SP Radio. What the hell, it might make me feel better.
It did! I still feel the regret and guilt, but I'm going to go get dressed and go for a jog. I haven't been since Sunday. LAST Sunday. I feel horrible about that, too. Only one way to fix that. And I know I will feel better, during and after. Actually, I already do, just from thinking about it. I'll be back... :)