Skulking in the background
Monday, May 27, 2013
I am having one of those months -- - not on track not off track but not able to pull it all together. Feeling out of sorts. Out of the loop. All that kind of stuff. You know when you don't bother to pick up the phone to call or text anyone cause you feel like there is absolutely nothing to talk about??? That's me - skulking in the background....
Hubby and I have been watching what we eat and I'm still hovering in the low 200's. Just can't seem to get myself back intoonederland over the past month..... HA! who am I kidding - I've been stuck for a year! I hate to admit it but my new goal is to weigh less than him.... He's weighing in at 182 and the doctor wants him down to 150. Right now I just want to catch up and pass him by a few pounds -- is that so bad????
It just seems wrong to me to weigh more than him. It bothers me.
I tried staying off the scale totally for a few weeks and that was no help to me mentally. Got on this morning and I'm hanging at 202. What is it about this 200 - 205 that has me so stuck for months now??? I have to do something to shake things up!
I've been tracking my food and staying in the zone - at least this weekend I did not drink my daily calories Ha Ha... it is lake season again so I have to watch those weekends don't carry me away in a margarita glass!!!!!!!!!
Husband had me shovel stone all day yesterday - we were landscaping an area off our deck at the lake around the fire pit. It has been a weed and mud zone for years and we finally decided against lawn and for no maintenance stone. Good thing about projects like this - it keeps me from grazing the fridge as we were outside all day from 10 - 6 stopped for a healthy lunch and a couple of water breaks but we were on our feet and working all day long.
My gym pass expired mid may so I am on my own again for the next 6 months. I got out my DVD's and hand weights - put them on display in the living room by the big screen - vacuumed and mopped down the floors.... and dusted my work out stuff... and that's as far as I've got. So I'm giving myself credit for the vacuuming. Gotta start somewhere..... And tomorrow I'm meeting Lisa for a walk in the evening and Wednesday I have a date with Davina for a walk in my main city park which I used to walk years ago as my daily routine so I'm hoping that will give me the lift I need to get back into gear.
I feel like I am skulking in the background. Not living up front - sort of trying to decide what my next move is - and having trouble keeping it all together in the meantime. I must say that since husband is watching his waistline it has been easier not to snack at night - he get a serving of edamame or veggies and low fat dip or hummus at night - but I have convinced him to keep things like peanut butter out of the house. My god! What is it about peanut butter - I can't seem to walk by the jar without sneaking a spoonful - it is pure EVIL!!!!!!!!
So this week I will come out of the background a bit and go for my walks - catch up with friends - make an effort to come out of the woodwork.