Monday, May 27, 2013
I stated in the last couple blogs that I was going to start tracking again. well, I did not. I failed miserably. I have not lost as much weight as I should have. the 20 lbs, well I keep gaining that back. I have managed to get as low as 311 but no where close to that now. I am at 319 as of yesterday the 26th. I am still eating like before, way too much and the wrong things. I tried to buy protein powder to do the puree diet again but you cant buy them on food stamps. and they are around twenty dollars a jug. I am still drinking soda. matter of fact, I just bought a three liter with my last little change from the dollar store. just because I am tired of drinking the same things over and over. I mainly drink tea and crystal light fruit punch and lemon aid. I don't like all kinds of flavored drinks. I have tried to buy things in the diet, but the stores that I can afford don't sell everything. I am sure the expensive ones sell them. I cant even find turkey in baby food. (for a recipe). I have tried three stores. I cant find a job to help out due to having a felony background. it has to be an inside job due to some of my meds and sunshine not getting along. I am planning to go back to school in the fall for office administration. I have a certificate in business management, but that is from '04 and I don't remember anything. I am hoping that this will help me get a job. ssi is not enough to live on and I only get 758 and150 in stamps. most of my check goes to bills. even though I have gotten rid of some. in feb, I did the unthinkable and put three of my four cats up for adoption. boy I hated doing that. I miss them big time.
I have even gotten a couple bills reduced to help save money. one of my friends is paying my cell phone bill to help out. that is fifty I don't have to pay each month. my house phone is only about 18 a month and I am thinking about getting rid of that in august after the contract ends. other than that my rent takes up most of the check. the next three to four months I have to pay a loan back with small fees because a friend ran up a cable bill with pay-per-view movies knowing he would not be around to pay. I think he did it because I kicked him out. oh well. this made the bill go above three hundred. I took out a small loan and paid most of it with it. now there is just under a hundred left to pay. between the three of us we can handle it.
back to eating. I was sure that I could buy protien mix on stamps because you us it to make drinks and food. boy was I wrong. that means i will not be able to get surgery because I would have to constantly buy them and there is only about twenty scoops in it, so that means twenty drinks. when I finish this soda I am going to stop drinking them. they are not helping me lose weight. since I cant buy the mix, I wont b able to follow the diet at all. that stinks. next month I am going to try a diet pill that seems to have good reviews from what I can find. if it works, then I wont need he surgery after all. I want to lose @150 lbs by my bd in april '14. it is not looking too good for me. with less than a year to go and I haven't lost 20 and kept it off. it seems like when I lose a few, I gain it right back. the other day I weighed in the morning and then went to the docs and weighed and came in at 311. I knew that was not right because when I weighed it came to 317, without my clothes on. so we went with 317. well I guess that is enough for now.