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MAJOR FAILURE

Monday, May 27, 2013

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I stated in the last couple blogs that I was going to start tracking again. well, I did not. I failed miserably. I have not lost as much weight as I should have. the 20 lbs, well I keep gaining that back. I have managed to get as low as 311 but no where close to that now. I am at 319 as of yesterday the 26th. I am still eating like before, way too much and the wrong things. I tried to buy protein powder to do the puree diet again but you cant buy them on food stamps. and they are around twenty dollars a jug. I am still drinking soda. matter of fact, I just bought a three liter with my last little change from the dollar store. just because I am tired of drinking the same things over and over. I mainly drink tea and crystal light fruit punch and lemon aid. I don't like all kinds of flavored drinks. I have tried to buy things in the diet, but the stores that I can afford don't sell everything. I am sure the expensive ones sell them. I cant even find turkey in baby food. (for a recipe). I have tried three stores. I cant find a job to help out due to having a felony background. it has to be an inside job due to some of my meds and sunshine not getting along. I am planning to go back to school in the fall for office administration. I have a certificate in business management, but that is from '04 and I don't remember anything. I am hoping that this will help me get a job. ssi is not enough to live on and I only get 758 and150 in stamps. most of my check goes to bills. even though I have gotten rid of some. in feb, I did the unthinkable and put three of my four cats up for adoption. boy I hated doing that. I miss them big time. emoticon emoticon
I have even gotten a couple bills reduced to help save money. one of my friends is paying my cell phone bill to help out. that is fifty I don't have to pay each month. my house phone is only about 18 a month and I am thinking about getting rid of that in august after the contract ends. other than that my rent takes up most of the check. the next three to four months I have to pay a loan back with small fees because a friend ran up a cable bill with pay-per-view movies knowing he would not be around to pay. I think he did it because I kicked him out. oh well. this made the bill go above three hundred. I took out a small loan and paid most of it with it. now there is just under a hundred left to pay. between the three of us we can handle it.
back to eating. I was sure that I could buy protien mix on stamps because you us it to make drinks and food. boy was I wrong. that means i will not be able to get surgery because I would have to constantly buy them and there is only about twenty scoops in it, so that means twenty drinks. when I finish this soda I am going to stop drinking them. they are not helping me lose weight. since I cant buy the mix, I wont b able to follow the diet at all. that stinks. next month I am going to try a diet pill that seems to have good reviews from what I can find. if it works, then I wont need he surgery after all. I want to lose @150 lbs by my bd in april '14. it is not looking too good for me. with less than a year to go and I haven't lost 20 and kept it off. it seems like when I lose a few, I gain it right back. the other day I weighed in the morning and then went to the docs and weighed and came in at 311. I knew that was not right because when I weighed it came to 317, without my clothes on. so we went with 317. well I guess that is enough for now.
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CATHM26 5/27/2013 1:26PM

    Hi! If I was you I would stay away from the diet pills. They aren't going to help you. I really really think you should just talk to a nutritionist who could help you plan a healthy diet in your budget. I'm Canadian so I'm not sure - but seeing a nutritionist should be a free service at your local hospital, a clinic, or through your community services. Whatever you would spend on protein powder or soft drinks is more than what eating healthy costs. I found that when I'm eating healthy, it is actually cheaper becuase quality foods fill you up more, so you are eating less. And then you have leftovers for lunches and things like that. If you plan it out - trust me you can do it.

You have only failed if you give up - and you haven't given up. You can do this - just read the Spark articles and use the resources available. Do not turn to diet pills and fad diets - they will only make you gain more weight later. There are lots of great recipes on Spark and also, check out Rachael Ray's website - she has a section on budget meals that I find helpful.

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