Monday, May 27, 2013
Today is my birthday. I don't dread the age. I'm 51 years old today. Today is the 1st birthday since my Mother died. The 1st is the saddest for sure.
All month long I have run to the PO box hoping for one more birthday card from my Mother. She must have made the card for my birthday this year in early January. Then she dated them all and addressed them. All Ewald would have had to do was pop them in the mail. My mother was very organized. But she wasn't this organized. She was busy living her life in January not preparing birthday cards. No card came.
All day I'm going to hold on to my cell phone. Surely Mom will call me and sing me happy birthday off key again this year. Mom was such a beautiful singer. Off key never happened in her singing. The call won't be coming this year or any other year ever again.
The woman who gave me life, life is over and mine is not. Today and every day I have to figure my way without her. I'll get there. Happy Birthday me.