Doing it for real this time
Monday, May 27, 2013
Yesterday was my 24th birthday. I realized this morning that I have spent the last ten years of my life hating my body. I've decided that this year, I'm making a change, a real change. I want to get healthy for me this time. In the past I focused on my looks, wanting to lose the weight for a guy, to look good on vacation, or to get ready for the summer. But after I got over the guy, the vacation happened, or fall rolled around, I was still overweight and had no more external motivation. I realized I need to do it for me. Everything else in life will come and go, but I will be me, in whatever body I have, for the rest of my life. I know now that I have to get healthy, not to impress someone or to get ready for something, but because I have to love and protect the only body I have. For my birthday this year, I'm going to give myself the gift of self-love, internal motivation, and the drive to succeed because I deserve it.