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Time to Lift Like a Girl and Kick my Weight in it's (read MY) Booty!!

Monday, May 27, 2013

Well here I am again...yes, I said again. Day one. Day one. It's like looking out over a valley and you're standing on the edge of the cliff. Do I take the leap of faith or retreat into my comfy chair with my package of peanut butter oreos tucked under my arms? Hmmmmm.....

The truth is; I'm pretty upset with myself for allowing me to let myself go. And I did...and I went...and so did the body I was used to seeing. Now, not to say I didn't have some help...two c-sections are not exactly a tummy tuck!!!! But, there are things that I have done (and stressed over) to exacerbate my situation. emoticon

But as I sit here...blogging for the first time ever...wearing my work out gear, finishing my paleo-based breakfast and poised to get back into the gym. I'm reflecting on my accomplishments this year. I am about 8 lbs lighter than I was in January...I also conquered my fear of the gym and I lift weights right next to those kids young enough to be my own (sometimes you need to flick them off the weight benches). So, I have made some progress...just not as quickly or dramatically as my little brain would like!! I really, really want to be "sexy" (in my own mind) again...and look good for my boyfriend and be someone he's proud to be seen with on his arm (not that he's EVER told me any different - you know, I'm a mind THINKS things on its own....and I love to beat myself up...I'm working on that too).

This month I made another pact with myself - to remove negativity and negative people from my life. Almost immediately - as soon as I made that statement to myself, I felt relief. It's MY life...MY body...MY decision to be happy. I'm taking it....and I'm not stressing over the little things any more. (Okay - maybe a little...but, I'll get better with practice).
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    Good for you that you've made such important and life-changing steps to a healthier lifestyle: being here at SP, and blogging about your 'were, am, and will be's'. This helps us to be accountable, even if only to ourselves.

    The best advice I can give you is to log everything that passes your lips. What I found works best - for me at least - is to look at my nutritional values (calories, carbs, fat, protein) as I look at my money in the bank. I know how much I have to spend and it's important that I find the best and most beneficial ways in which to spend it. Also, get involved: there are numerous teams and challenges that you can join that will suit your personality and your needs. And, don't be afraid to ask questions. The staff are great about answering every question asked of them on the Message Boards.

    I wish you the best of luck, but even more than that I wish you fortitude, stamina, motivation, happiness, and the ability to inspire others.

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    1760 days ago
    emoticon you are already off to a great start!
    1760 days ago
  • ICAMP2
    I completely understand! I am in the same place! I started the C25K (on week 4 but its been about 7 weeks) and eat mostly primal. You can do it! I am new to Sparks but love it (though you will find its not very primal friendly overall, don't let that throw you). Good luck on your journey! Find some good challenges and get involved! emoticon
    1761 days ago
  • LJOYCE55
    Hope your first blog was helpful to you and I wish you luck on your journey.
    1761 days ago
    You made the right decision to join Sparks; so many of us can identify with what you are saying.
    The worst part for me was just making the decision to lose weight. Now that I am committed it is easier.
    I think of it like a journey to feeling better about myself; growing in self-esteem, looking better in my clothes, opportunity to buy smaller ones, and becoming better physically fit. I look at this like a long stair case, but must take one step at a time.

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    Best wishes
    1761 days ago
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