Monday, May 27, 2013
I tend to over react. I know this is probably very hard to believe. I embarrassed myself with my last post, 'Days of Wine & Roses. Nights of Whiskey & Pansies!' Rather than just delete it like I warned I would, I just went down the list of my blogs & deleted them all. I didn't even read the titles! I just figured if I wrote them they were full of TOO much information & they needed to go!
I almost quit Spark. My friend Lynne called me & told me not to. I think she knows me pretty well even though we've never met in person.
In the couple of years I was on FB I unfriended more people than most people have as friends. Not because they were mean or bad. Most of them just because they didn't interact with me enough.
I don't own any year books from my days in school. I've probably had 20 living rooms full of knick-knacks that I've thrown away. I just get tired of looking at things. When Lenny first moved in with me I was having one of my insomnia nights & I packed up all the things in my living room & hauled it all down to the dumpster. The next morning he asked me what happened. When I told him he just said, 'Boy, I hope you never get tired of looking at me. I'd hate to wake up in the dumpster.'
Most of it I don't regret. I do wish tho that I hadn't thrown away 99% of my artwork & writings. I wish I kept Mikhail's keepables. I do have things like his stuff like baby books, locks of hair, baby teeth. I got rid of things like first hand writing, drawings, etc. I have gotten better about this the last few years though because HE wants me to keep them. Even tho it goes against my nature I do it for him because well, he is Mikhail!
I have a couple of quilts & a handful of pictures from when I was a kid. That's it. My BFF friend Marla did the same thing. Her boyfriend used to put it in big black bags & hide it from her. A few months or years later when she was regretting it Dean would bring it back out for her. She always said it was like Christmas.
The bad thing about my blog entries though is that once I pushed delete they were gone! Just gone. Oh, well. Just one more thing I can say good-bye to. That's okay. I have plenty more in my head to share! If only for an hour! www.sparkpeople.com/mysp