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Trina's Life: Starring Trina

Sunday, May 26, 2013

I was trying to figure out why I have such self loathing sometimes and I came to the realization that I am trying to live up to some strange expectation that I feel people have of me. Does that make sense? I feel like I have always been someone else's sidekick or supporting actor. I have always been someones daughter, someones sister, someones friend, or someones crazy boss, in the story of their life, never the star of Trina's life. I am now going to start starring in my own life. Trina's Life. Starring Trina.

Now if I can just figure out how to do that. I think I might have to start saying "no" sometimes. I might have to ask myself why I am doing things, because it is what I want to do or because it is what other people want me to do, and then only do it if it is for me. The hardest part is to start believing that I am good enough to star in my own life. Logically, I know I am, but that is different than believing it.

So here it goes. Dim the lights. Get comfy. Here is my imperfect, eff'd up, funny, sad, (hopefully a little romantic), real life. Trina's Life. And I am the star.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BACK2PHAT 5/30/2013 2:17PM

    I know exactly what you mean Trina. I had to stand up for myself and my own sanity and health a few month's back. Now i've just been trying to get in gear to move forward with my journey. It's a struggle when your a people pleaser but enough is enough and giving up on myself or yourself is not an option. You can do this and so will I. Can't wait to see your new future that lies ahead.

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DEBORAH2180 5/27/2013 11:04AM

    Yay! Just follow the beats of your drum no matter how silly or goofy that looks! And most importantly, don't be ashamed or embarrassed! You are the star!

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PATJOONWW 5/27/2013 8:47AM

    You are good enough!

Good luck on reaching your goals, and have a great day. emoticon Much success on your journey! emoticon
emoticon ~Pat

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