Sunday, May 26, 2013
Well. Here I am. So that's good.
I've had a horrific slide over the last couple of years. Stress and illness and all kinds of things went along with not exercising. I learned years ago that exercise is the key for me, that when I'm active everything else - food, drink, routines, confidence - just falls into place. I really need to remind myself of that now.
I just looked over my old profile summary and I'm so glad I left it up here. The best thing I can do for myself now is to act on all that great advice again.
I don't know what I weigh, we haven't got scales in the house. Last time I weighed myself was about two months ago and I was over 11 stone (154lbs) so still 20lbs below my highest ever weight.
I actually think it's a good thing I'm not starting from a number this time. Last time (the first time) I lost weight and got fit it became all about the numbers and I really struggled to make the jump from being motivated by loss of pounds to being driven by, say, increased running distances or other fitness milestones.
This time I want my lifestyle changes to be about fitness from the outset; to, as much as I can, forget what I look like, forget what the numbers say, just concentrate on how I'm feeling and what I'm capable of. Then exercise becomes the best of itself, which is a connection with and respect for myself.
It feels weird just writing those words. The idea that I would respect myself feels alien. It's fine when I think of respecting my "physical self" but when it comes to integrating that into a general self-respect I struggle.
The keys are what they always have been:
Small goals, gradual changes
Exercise helps create a mentality that supports other areas of my life
Never give up, never give in
There's a lot I'm uncomfortable with in my life. Exercise can be the one thing I can always control, will give me a sense of security and strength, self-possession and self-reliance. I'm excited. I know what great things can come from this. Here I go again!
So much luck to all of you.