Sunday, May 26, 2013
Three months of complete gloom due to separating from my spouse was the first half of that. Then the misery didn't really go away. And now I'm (unsurprisingly?) going through a divorce.
Also I found an amazing new boyfriend whom I feel terrified of being temporary, frankly. But I'm enjoying that very much.
I had mono since May 1st which I am barely getting over. Between mono and divorce, my school quarter is screwed over. I'm a bit panicked.
So it's been 6 months since I have lifted weights or frankly exercised well in general. How frustrating!
But we can't lament over the past. We can only try now.
So I'm trying now. Today I will lift weights, again! I will go over my old routine and lift what I can. Maybe I will dance too for some cardio because there is no time for jogging right now.
I'm an all or nothing type person. The 15 minutes a day thing is difficult for me, even as hard as Spark pushes that. It's a large flaw of mine that I have to forgive for now. I'll figure it out eventually.
For now I would like to try really hard to get back in to the workout I had been doing and want to continue doing for the long term, like I had been. Which will push me towards my monthly exercise minutes goal and be awesome.
Gotta keep on surviving......
Divorce is going smooth but it's still 7 years out the window, a change in everything, a ripped out foundation. We're close friends and intend to remain so. It's just.. having to move back home and hoping for the best with the dream boy is scary. I started dating my boyfriend in the start of May.
I'm actually moving in with dream boy start of June. He's everything I want so I'm really nervous about it. Nothing in life is certain. I guess I should just roll with it and enjoy it.