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An embarrassing tale

Sunday, May 26, 2013

I got on the scale this morning, and the evidence was there. I have gained 25 lbs since January. I know that if I ignore this, the scale will continue to climb. This didn't come out of the blue; obviously I am feeding my problem. But this kind of weight gain is crazy. My husband finds the result totally out of proportion to what I eat, but it is what it is.

Gone are the days when I could count on a fairly stable metabolism to keep me at a steady weight, provided I don't go overboard. I gain weight extremely quickly now.

I've had my thyroid checked, thinking something must be wrong, but everything seems to be fine. Well... I'm not fine. I am discouraged and very uncomfortable. I am winded when walking up the slightest incline.

I was in service with a sister and we were walking up to a house. The house was at the end of a mildly hilly driveway. Earlier, she said, "I'm praying you have a nice call." Later, I said, "Pray that I can breathe when I get there." She replied, "I am." Isn't that pathetic? It really wasn't a very high rise, but I couldn't breathe.

So, I am resolved to do something about it. As I wrote in my introduction on my sparkpage, I am going to focus on the NEED to lose weight, rather than the reasons I WANT to.

I find it so embarrassing to even write this weight gain in a blog, but if I am going to really work at this openly... using daily, then I want to be honest with all of you. Though I haven't actually met any of you, I care for you and your friendship and support are really needed.

I'm thankful for all of you. emoticon

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    It's all been said just know that you are loved and yes, we do care. Support is essential for our well being in all aspects of life. Jehovah is our greatest support as you well know.
    I have added you as Sparkfriend.
    1753 days ago
    Please don't be embarrassed. I'm proud of you for openly admitting to the gain...that is the first step towards losing that weight again. I know you can do it!

    I have added you back as a friend...I thought you were already on my friends list but apparently I was wrong.
    1753 days ago
  • JUDY106
    Glad to see you are aware of your need to lose weight for you health. That is a great start. Then to come here on SP and use their tools is really a plus. Keeping sharing and we will all be there for you.
    1754 days ago
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    1754 days ago
    Thank you all for your loving insight. It warms my heart to read your comments and to know that I am not being judged. My goal this week is to spark every day, to track everything (food, exercise, goals), and to go on sparkcoach every day.

    Have a great day everyone!

    Claude xo emoticon
    1755 days ago
    You dont have a food tracker available to see...but can I recommend you write down everything you eat, because often the food we "dont pray over" is forgotten by our minds. Snacks, esp when they involve cheese can be devastating as can be take out food. Going green for a bit will really help beans, green spinach, broccoli etc along with your protein.
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    1755 days ago
    Nothing wrong with honesty and self examination. It must be hard not really knowing the cause. Have you checked with your Dr. We work so hard at our diets gaining is not an option. Wish I could help.
    I'm pulling for you.
    Sandy in Ca. emoticon
    1755 days ago
    Claude, have them check you for Wilson's Thyroid Disorder. It takes a special blood test to find it. That could be a part of your problem. Hang in there emoticon
    1755 days ago
    My friend. You are never alone in this journey to health and fitness...including with upsets and regaining of weight. You have identified what is happening (if not the cause) and the next step is to decide on what you can do to start turning things around again. Perhaps you could make a list of the things you could change...and then pick ONE thing to start with. Work on that one thing till it becomes routine and (perhaps) comfortable...then pick the next thing. I also suggest being mindful of what you are eating...It is easy to think we are eating carefully or well, and then discover that might not be the case at all. We are ALL here to help. The more you Spark, the more help you will find here. emoticon Whatever you do, DON'T give can't possibly win that way!
    1755 days ago
    Admitting you have a need is the first step! Congratuations! You are doing something about it and is a wonderful place of support and advise! Praying you have a great journey. Remember the tortoise and the hare and to smell the roses along the way of this journey!
    1755 days ago
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