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Sunday, May 26, 2013

Well, my dear SP friends, I am going to take a break for a little bit. I'm happy where I am weight wise, have some toning to do, and am more serious than ever about staying fit and healthy. But I need a break from SP. I'm still here if you need me (I get all of the email notifications), but DH and I need some time away from the computer for awhile.

I have so many people here to thank for being here with me the past 16 months. For motivating me, for inspiring me, and for lifting me up. At work, people treat weight loss like something that should happen overnite, and I am always referring them to SP and reminding them that it's not about "dieting," and that losing weight takes work - get up off the couch. Move. Eat better, not less. There are now 3 of us that walk the stairs around campus at recess, and the track at lunch. I am going to be heading the S2H Wellness Program in the Fall, which really excites me because I've been pushing for something like this since September.

This last week has been especially hard in a different way. On Tuesday we had to put our dog to sleep. Not having children, our dog was our son, and truly my husband's sidekick. We got Auggie a month after DH retired and the two were together 24/7 - with the exception of a few date nites, and 3 summer vacations - Auggie went everywhere with us, including road trips. He loved crawling into our laps, and as we read to him, or told him stories, he would tilt his head and look at us so intently. He was so dang smart, and always anticipated that we would sneak him some of his favorite words into our stories. argh. I could go on forever with stories about him. He was a creature of habit, just like DH and I, and each day has left us a wreck as we don't know what to do with ourselves now. We couldn't even stay in bed this morning because Sunday mornings and reading the paper in bed won't be the same for awhile. We miss him. And hugs to JAXMOMMY as our boys are hopefully together this week. She had the most amazing idea of planting something in the honor, knowing that "We all share the same sun that will allow our memory plants to bloom and grow as our love did for our boys." Wow. Talk about such a moving and powerful thought and act.

So I need a break for awhile. Hugs to you all. Keep doing what you are doing so well!

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  • KLONG8
    I've come to this late. I am SO sorry for the loss of your boy. I hope by now you are feeling a little better but mourning takes time. And know you're missed from SP because I always brightened up a bit when I heard from you. Sending you my best wishes for a great summer away from the computer a bit!
    1710 days ago
    My dear sp friend....I've been backing off sp a bit as well. I just read your blog today and I'm reading in bed on this wet Saturday morning with my little man (Little Bear) laying next to me. Sending so many hugs your way in this difficult transition. Auggie is certainly smiling down on his parents and so proud of his mom's success, as I am! Check in every once in a while - post some amazing pics of kicking butt on the water this summer. Peace my friend! emoticon emoticon
    1745 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. Hope you're doing better this week. We'll miss you! Keep up your hard work and do what you can! Talk to ya soon! :-)
    1749 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss!! I know it's very hard!

    You have done amazing and I really hope you stop on every once in a while to update us at least! Thank you for always being here for me!! :)
    1756 days ago
    So sorry to hear of your loss. Take your time and enjoy your time with your husband. You will be missed on the boards!
    1756 days ago
    sorry for your loss. I hope that this time off SP will be a healing period.
    emoticon on reaching your goal weight.
    1756 days ago
  • BECCA315
    So sorry about your loss! My mom died recently, and I planted an azalea bush in her honor. I know I will celebrate her life every time I look at it... Becca
    1756 days ago
    How fantastic for you and hubby to have had Auggie sharing life with you.
    The loss is hard, I know full well. But the memories are forever, where life itself isn't.

    I'm sorry to lose you from here, but a break from routines could be a big help just now.
    I hope to "see" you again soon.

    1756 days ago
    I'm so sorry for loss, what a beautiful dog.
    1757 days ago
    Congratulations on reaching your goal! So happy for you!

    So happy you had the love of this special dog and on how special he came to your husband, (his sidekick), I know it's hard, but the memories are good. Time will heal the pain your feeling now.

    Joined Sparks and now time to Soar the Skies Beautiful Butterfly, You Did It! So proud of You.

    1757 days ago
    What a beautiful pup was Auggie. I'm so sorry for your loss -- I know how hard it is to lose your dear creatures. Sending condolences to you both.
    1757 days ago
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    I am so sorry for your loss. Our dog is always with us, and I know from experience how hard it is to lose a dog. I will miss you, and understand you need time for other things. Stay healthy and keep in touch when you can. Please let you hubby know I am thinking of him too.
    1757 days ago
    So sorry to read of your loss. Thinking of you and wishing that you're time away does you good.

    1757 days ago
    Sorry about your loss emoticon

    1757 days ago
  • TRACY31502
    I am so sorry to hear this :( pr ayers and hugs for you!!! Will miss you here but completely understand!!!! So proud of you and how you've done on your journey you have inspired m e souch and went above and beyond encouraging me you are one of those sp friends I wish I could just hang out with! Thank you for everything! And I can't wait to hear how your doing when you come back!!!! :)
    1757 days ago
    So sorry about Auggie. So many people have "fur children" and they become such an important part of our lives. He looks like a border collie and they truly are intelligent and wonderful companions. Enjoy your summer and I hope you post from time to time some of your adventures. emoticon
    1757 days ago
    Hugs to you. Sorry to hear about your pup. Have a good break. We all need them now and again. See you when you get back....Take care. emoticon

    1758 days ago
    Understand. Best wishes for growth and healthy living.
    1758 days ago
    emoticon Sorry to hear about Auggie.
    1758 days ago
    He was so beautiful. I am sure he knew he was loved and felt very safe with you both and a complete part of your family emoticon
    1758 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    Auggie was beautiful and will be in your hearts forever. I know how painful the loss of a beloved pet is. Time will heal your heart and you will smile brightly and cry just a little when you think of your beautiful little son.
    1758 days ago
    We're here when you need us again. Thank you for being one of my best friends here. Take the time to grieve, it's always hard to lose a good friend, furry or otherwise. emoticon
    1758 days ago
    What a gorgeous furbaby, having just lost my sweet Kali before Christmas, I know how much it hurts having to let go of our family mamber. Sometimes making the right decision is so very hard, and it will take time for the pain to lessen but it does... Keep the happy memories and he will stay with you in your heart.
    1758 days ago
  • SAMI2012
    So sorry to hear of your loss. It is truly heart breaking to lose a family member. Hang in there.
    1758 days ago
  • WUBBY82
    Oh Auggie, what a beautiful boy! All my love to you and DH during this difficult time.

    Computer timeouts are often so freeing. Enjoy it!
    1758 days ago
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