Friday, May 24, 2013
It's been two weeks since I stopped eating fast food and I feel like all of the sudden the cravings just came all at once. I was on my way home at about 9 p.m. tonight and I just started craving a cheeseburger from Wendy's, their fries, and a soda. I told myself it was a bad idea, so then I settled for just a side. I then came close to Chick Fil A and I thought GREAT! I love their waffle fries, so that was perfect. I pulled in to Chick FIl A and thought about how weird it would be for me to just order fries and a drink.
I then decided I shouldn't be eating that right now, so I went through the line without placing an order. Talk about will power! I turned around and got back on the route home. I promised myself I could eat one of those 100-calorie chocolate pudding desserts I keep in the fridge if I do not pick up fast food. The closer I got to home, the more I thought about picking up a burger and fries. I wanted to so bad I felt like I needed it and then I realized that I have a problem. I am addicted. I felt that I physically needed that burger and fries. I thought about where I would pick up a meal, Wendy's or Taco Bell. MMMMM. I decided a Wendy's cheeseburger would do nicely.
But, the drive home was long and I just kept thinking about how horrible I would feel after eating all of that. I am doing Insanity. Why am I doing Insanity if I am just going to go eat fast food??? That is so pointless. I get all upset when I do not lose any weight, so how can I justify eating an extra meal and loaded with fat at that? I started to feel so guilty about the whole thing.
I finally made it home without picking up fast food, but I still wish I had. The whole ordeal just makes me depressed. :( I ate my pudding cup, but I really wanted that burger. I think I will have to go get one, just to get rid of the craving, but plan the rest of my meals for that day accordingly. I wish I didn't have such strong cravings like this.
My willpower is very weak, but somehow I managed to avert this crisis!