Friday, May 24, 2013
So, the lady who runs the cremation facility called today and she offered to bring Jack's ashes out to me. I said yes. He is not yet in an urn, but they sent the urn and it is a beautiful wood box with flowers carved on it and the nameplate that says "Jack" on the first line and "Our Precious Baby Boy" on the 2nd line. I'll try to get a pic to post of it. The paw print is made like an ornament so I can hang it on the tree if I want. I will probably put it where I have year round access to it. Both the paw print and the nose print are on paper and can be scanned to make charms for a bracelet. I'll probably do that. The most disappointing thing is that her son is now her assistant and isn't very good about following directions and forgot to get a hair clipping. It is the one thing that gave me some meaning and blah! He's another example of too many irresponsible people in their 20s! Grrr! But, Anthony assured me that we have plenty of Jack's hair around the house to get me some to put into my locket. I figured as much. They also told me that if I sent them a picture and a story about Jack he would be posted on their web site's memorial page. I like that idea too.
She asked if Jack was a service animal. I told her I would like to lie to her since service animal cremations and keepsakes are free for the person with the disability, but couldn't do it! For one thing, I don't lie. For another the idea of Jack being my service animal makes me laugh too hard! If that were so, we'd both would have been dead a long time ago! I often have told my Mixed Mutt Doghouse friends how Jack leading me would be like a Macy's Thanksgiving Parade with me being one of the giant blow up balloons trailing after Jack as we wondered to all the pee mails on the track we were taking!So, I paid for my dog's cremation and keepsakes!
I can't stand how fast it all went. So much suffering over a too long piece of time that really wasn't too long, but still too long for my baby to suffer. The death happened so quickly and then the next day I have his remains! Too fast.
I bumped my elbow in the shower this AM and didn't get a bark suspecting it was a car door. Anthony went to his morning routine to put fresh water and food in Jack's bowls and then remembered he had to thow it out. The "bug man" came today with no warning. (exterminater) We gave him the rest of Jack's food. Those guys don't make much and he is a really nice man with a dog. I gave him a couple toys that Jack never had the energy to destroy too. Coming home to this empty house really sucks!
Well, I'm either getting sick or I simply cried too much yesterday. My throat is killing me. I think I will lie down until Anthony gets home from work.
Before I go.... Thank you each and every one of you most compassionate, caring Spark Friends! I am trying to respond to each person who sent me a goody, but can't do it for blog responses and all comments. So, here is an all embracing thank you! Each of you needs to know how your kinds words and gestures help me! They do.