I have finally accepted me as me. I love saying that. Over the past year and a half, lots of personal life crisis' have happened and have put a damper on what most of us call, "losing weight, diets, too fat, too skinny, not pretty enough, etc." Well, that's when I used to call myself fat, no self esteem, don't feel good about myself, etc. These past few months, I've changed my views about myself, although every now and then I have these moments of self doubt and kind of get a little down, which I think is normal at this point in my life, (premenopausal...hormonal...an
d all that jazz!).
Being healthy and happy is what is most important to me at this point in my life. I read so many blogs daily of how people do the things they do because those things make them feel happy not because they need to lose weight or be thin or whatever. I believe that is where I am finally getting to. "Do what you like, like what you do." by Life Is Good. And I'll add to that, "and feel good during and after it". I do not want society to dictate what weight I should or shouldn't be at or even how I should look, that is my decision to make based on how I feel and what state my health is in. I feel like so many humans worry and stress about those things so much that they are consumed by them day in and day out. That to me is not enjoying life. I quote one of my favorite sayings, "Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, dirty martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOOHOO what a ride!!!"
There may be days where I'm all about fitness stuff, participating in triathlons, running, lifting weights, boxing, zumba'ing, eating good, healthy, whole foods but then again there may be days where I'm taking a day off, no slumpa in my dinka, having a martini, chillin with a glass of wine and a big ole chocolate brownie or just reading a good book. That doesn't mean I'm trying to lose weight or that I'm being lazy, that just means those are the things that make me happy and feel good at that moment and it makes me enjoy life a whole lot more. So today, I feel great, I am happy with myself, I love my life and I feel healthy and strong.