Friday, May 24, 2013
Double posted here from my main Sparkpage.
I have been overweight my whole life. As a child due to a medical condition I grew quickly both up and out. After a few surgeries and many outpatient procedures I was told at the age of 13 that while my problem would never be gone (I was born missing a couple bits) everything was functioning normally and would most likely continue to do so for many years. Perhaps even most my life. Great news. Unfortunately the weight was still there and not coming off. I was 13 5'5" 250 lbs. and done growing. Over the next few years I tried diet after technique after diet. Nothing changed. By my early 20's I had given up. This all changed a few years ago. My father developed high blood pressure so I had to watch the sodium count in the foods I was making. I had never really payed close attention to anything other than the calories and fat on labels. What I learned was you have to either be a chemist or really do your homework every time you buy something new to know what you're putting into your body. Forget that. I started making most everything myself. I was still eating the same things in the same amounts only without all the extra whatever-that-stuff-is. The weight started coming off. I wasn't even the first to notice. One day my aunt, who I hadn't seen in a few months, mentioned that it looked like I'd lost some weight. I brushed it off at first thinking it impossible. Over the next few days it nagged at me. I had noticed a few of my shirts fitting more loosely but had put that down to the age of the shirts. But auntie hadn't seen me for awhile, and if I had lost, someone who hadn't seen me in a while would probably be the first to notice. I thought what could it hurt and got on the scale. 227 it read. I had lost 23 lbs. without even noticing (you know you're big when). Over the next year or so another 25 came off. I lost nearly 50 lbs. without lifting a finger. Then the work started. I've been (mostly) busting my butt since to get the rest off. Early on I stumbled on this site and have been taking grateful advantage of the counters and articles. Being in the habit of keeping mostly to myself I really only lurked around the fringes of the community area. But now I feel as if I need a little nudge. I've just turned 30 and it's way past time to get my life in order. I've stagnated for too long. My first move in this new era is to put myself out there. If I can't make myself part of the virtual world I'll never get out in the real world. So here I am taking that first tiny step. Perhaps writing my goals and journey down here will make me more accountable to myself and give me that extra oomph I need.