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Friday, May 24, 2013

I have a friend that we have been talking on and off for over 9 months now. We met through a mutual friend. He lived over 140 miles from me. Now he's in the process of moving back to Houston. Yet, he's still 30 miles away, on the other side of town.

We have been speaking more this week... He convinced me that we should meet in a public place and chat... He chooses a karaoke bar... I don't dance or do karaoke. I feel nerveous... I'm still not feeling well from the meds (doc prescribed) that gave me a really bad dry cough... Yet, he still wants to meet me, sickness and all...

In a way, I'm glad to be going out and getting away from the drama of my household. I still am hesitant to open my heart and let someone, anyone for that matter, in.

My fear is...

what happens if we don't click?

what happens if I feel nothing towards him??

what happens if we do hit it off???

what happens if this is more than I can handle????

I'm afraid to let someone in... Going through a loss of a husband... It changes you. As much as you want comfort in someone being there; you're afraid of betraying the memory (and vows) you made with the love of your life...

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  • MARIANNE9855
    go ahead! if its bad you never have to see him again- if nothing else its good practice for when you meet the one! plus i believe your husband would want a bubbly lively person with so much to give, like you! to be happy emoticon emoticon
    1736 days ago
    Just enjoy an evening out with NO expectations at all except to have some fun !!!

    You deserve to enjoy yourself. You are awesome !!!
    1736 days ago
  • TXTOAD9970
    I am about to celebrate my 22nd wedding anniversary and I can honestly say I don't know what I would do if I lost my husband. I commend your bravery. But I agree with YELLOWDAHLIA - you won't know the answers to your questions unless you go. And you better go. You won't be able to live with the "what if's?" if you don't go. The worst that can happen is that you don't have the best time and you decide it wasn't for you. But if you have been talking to him for nine months, there's something there...

    Don't be like my Grandma. She is a widow after 54 years of marriage to my wonderful Grandpa who died a few years ago. There's a nice older man from church who has been friendly with her (in her small town, everybody knows everybody) and has shown an interest in her. She has all but beat him with her cane! I think she thinks it will dishonor my Grandpa's memory if she has coffee with another man. I tried to tell her she was being silly but she won't hear it. She is very lonely - it is very sad. She deserves to have a companion.

    So do you! Go for it girl!! emoticon
    1736 days ago
    You won't know the answers to your questions unless you go.
    Hope you have a fantastic time and find what you're looking for.
    1737 days ago
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