I began this journey in 2007 absolutely convinced that I would finish it in the same year. But of course that doesn't always happen, in fact, it seldom happens from the many sparks members who have been here as long as I have.
Today I was reflecting on my weight loss journey which began waaay back in 2007
I started a journal with some personal pictures in it and began recording my weight loss journey which I believed with all my heart would end that year with me being at my goal weight.
I joined a gym and worked hard.
I did some CRAZZZY hikes which was a first for me. I'd been a couch potato forever, literally sitting on the side lines watching the men in my family have all the fun while I just parked off with a book. I was the fetch and drop mom with the bag of tricks, towels, plasters, snacks etc for along the way which is partly why my weight kept going up (not the soul reason...I had loads of emotional damage going on) and why I wore an insecure expression which I didn't even realize I wore till I looked back at the photos of then and my now expression.
I joined a gym one year and needless to say, the experience was amazing and within a few months I was looking like a different person as my body began changing shape, and even reached double figures on the scale.
I saw my clothing sizes change dramatically to my delight.
Getting fitter led to some mini extreme challenges which were just incredible. I had no idea I could do half of what I did....gone were the days of my sitting on the side lines, suddenly I was living life alongside my family...a very happy time of my life which is still ongoing.
Climbed 618 stairs (there and back)
To stand under a powerful waterfall.
Slid down embankments.
Tried cycling....decided I didnt like the pain in my butt and gave it up.
So although its taken me 6 years plus the year we are in,and admittedly I lost 20kgs and then put it all back on again, but the time I spent, has not all been a waste. Not been a failure either. I have learned some incredible things along the way about healthy snacking like celery with peanut butter and raisins which also alleviates binge eating because the protein fills you, while the raisins fix the sugar craving and the celery crunch reminds you to keep it healthy.
I've discovered Cadbury's Hilights hot chocolate which is a rich and creamy tasting chocolate (add water only) and still a mere 50 calories per cup which fixes a chocolate craving in its tracks.
And above all else I have met some truly wonderful people who became my friends and if for no other reason that that, this time has been worth it.
Its taken from 2007 - current for me to learn about insulin resistance and pre diabetes and a really sick time to discover that I REALLY cannot eat any sweets, confectioneries etc...REALLY CANT and accepted that. I've learned that hiking is wonderful, mini extreme challenges are the best, but nothing takes the place of structured exercise under a trainer while on a weight loss program (for me). So boot camp came into play.
This year also saw many firsts for me, including winning a weight loss challenge, receiving a boot camp certificate with GI Jane on it for effort and my most recent effort will be attempting to lead a group here on sparks. Never done anything like that before either.
So the truth about a journey is that it isnt always the shortest route we originally planned on, but more importantly, its the things we learned along the way AND the fact that the journey is NOT OVER....and may never be fully over. I may always have to watch my weight even after I reach my goal.
For now, my goal is back to double figures which is another 8kgs.....and from there...who knows. Time will tell and I have time to prove myself to myself and to those who love me that the fat person isnt the real person and wont be me forever.
I will never give up. I read this on a sparkers page today and I agree with all my heart.
Never forget that failure isn't bad. Failure isn't final. Don't let the fear of failure stop you from achieving the success you deserve. If you're struggling, keep hustling. Keep taking at least one big action step each day.
~Craig Ballantyne (thanks John)
So I begin a new book to attach to my other book. A book that will finish the journey with me hopefully this year.