Thursday, May 23, 2013
I am relieved he is no longer struggling and is happy, playing and jumping once again, but oh my heart hurts! I feel so empty and the house is way too quiet!
Jack had alot of visitors yesterday. Quite a few people came by to say fairwell. It was actually sad because Jack was always a true party animal! He loved company and thought everyone in the neighborhood was in the neighborhood to come visit him! He tried to greet everyone, but didn't have the strength. A few visitors did get some doggie kisses.
This morning was especially tough on him. He fell out of bed. He had to lay down to do his little business and he never did do his big business. He never panted or whined on the ride which is not him. Maybe he knew. He stumbled into the first door at the vets and then laid down and could not get back up. The one doctor and Anthony carried him to the table. The sweet thing still tried to raise up to give his girlfriends a kiss! He thumped his tail in greeting for the doctor and his one special girlfriend! BTW, we always told him we were taking him to see his girlfriends when we took him to the vet and he was always happy to go! I held his head in my arms and Anthony rubbed his belly. They helped him to sleep first and then they gave the real stuff. I really didn't even realize he had gone until my husband said that he was with Amy (my sister). I aasked "is he gone?" and the vet and Anthony both said yes. The vet cried, the girlfriends cried, and Anthony & I sobbed! I held him a long time. I held him until his ears, his soft velvety ears, started to cool.
I can't tell you what a special dog he has been. He was such a good boy. He was funny too. He had such an expressive face, which I'm sure you can tell in his pics on my page. He loved just about every human. And, when he didn't like a human we knew to take caution. If he didn't like you, then something was bad about you!
We will get a pawprint in plaster, a nose print, a lock of his hair and his sweet ashes in an urn with a nameplate. WE elected to put "Jack, Our Precious Baby Boy" on the nameplate. I'm going to get a locket to put a bit of his ashes and the hair in it. I have not left the house without some of his hair on me in 8 and a half years, so I need some.
This morning I wrapped myself around him and held him close and talked to him. I got some compulsive kisses from him too. One of his nicknames was "Compulsive Kisser" beb/c once he would start kissing he wouldn't stop! I'm glad I got those kisses.
When we came home I could barely come in the house. Even as his health deteriated he would come greet us. The house is just so quiet. I miss him.
On a side note, Dad took a shower last night and had a great experience. We really like the CNA that showered him! He was in slightly better mood as a result. He also got his hair cut and it looked real good. He cried with me about Jack.
Well, now I enter a new chapter of my life. One without my faithful friend. I don't like it so far! But, I suppose I'll adapt. Jack went so peacefully and the doctor assured me he was already running and playing and I swear at that moment I wanted to go with him! I need a little joy.