Thursday, May 23, 2013
I may be Bipolar- Just kdiding but yesterday morning was such a High and this morning not soo much!
I think I am way beyond stressed #1 but gotta let that go.
Anyway so I have been working on this report Monday/Tuesday- Wednesday Morning I saw that I had done it for the wrong time periods. So had to start over- then I noticed they were much different from the other time period so I checked again I put in 1/4/13 instead of 4/1/13!!! ANNOYING So i stormed back to finance and had one of those Brownies. (I took note of the way it made me feel, funny how you can tell a difference after 10 days) Anyway I didnt have another one and worked on finishing my report had strawberries later.
Then I thought healthy pizza would be a great way for me to celebrate the end of the cleanse well I got whole wheat crust and did a margartia pizza, tomato, mozzarella, basil and black olives. It was soo heavy in my stomach I only had 2 pieces too. Felt misserable.
Plus side of this- I know I will keep eating healthy! I will continue to do the chicken breast at work for lunch and having fruits for snacks.
But I am feeling guilty about not working out- I know just yesterday I said I need to not do this to myself, but I feel like I am cheating myself but yet I am being pulled 10 different ways. I know the solution to this is AM workouts. But I cant get out of bed!!!! I am going to keep trying and keep trying though.
Ohh and my other downer- then I am done promise tomorrow will be Happy again.. I was getting my hair trimmed by my Brothers finace last night (She did the cleanse with me) She didnt weigh herself but she was like I got on the scale this morning and it was 120 so I am happy with that. she is 5-8!! It was like a shot to my gut! she isnt muscluar and doesnt have to do a thing to stay that way it drives me crazy! Ok OK I know that I have muscle and thats why I am 127, but I also know I have some more fat lbs that need to be shed... It just sucks that I have people around me who dont even need to walk daily to stay thin. If I dont take care of myself I will be back up to 142 and misserable.
Sorry for the Pity Party Today!! Man that was terrible Hopefully its outta my system now!