Thursday, May 23, 2013
Yesterday was my birthday. Normally not a big deal to me, but I've been super stressed lately, anxious and feeling unappreciated. I've been doing very well controlling my emotional eating, but yesterday I made up for it.
The bad news I binged, and I got sick with a stomach ache last night and my head was feeling weird. I didn't get a sugar high, but my body crashed like I had. I was lethargic but couldn't sleep, grouchy and had a super dry mouth.
The good news is that I haven't had a sugar binge in almost six months and definitely not one like yesterday's, and last night while I was in bed I realized that I used to feel like that ALL THE TIME! I don't like feeling like that anymore. The fact that I was able to say "Hey, you ate like crap today and look how it is making you feel", is kind of a big step for me.
Before I wouldn't have associated the nasty way my body was feeling with the food I had eaten, but last night I was able to. I don't know how to explain the way I felt at that moment, but it was sort of like when you're working on a puzzle and you have all these pieces that look the same but none of them quite fit right and then you find the piece that matches and you get excited and then feel a sense of accomplishment because that piece put you one step closer to finally seeing the whole picture.
I still have many other puzzle pieces to "find" and put in their proper place, but I'm okay with that.
Today I'm back on track, drinking my water and eating healthy foods so I can help my body feel and work the way it's supposed to.