Thursday, May 23, 2013
yepp... binge.. no reason whatsoever, just like that!!! I hate it!!! I'm sick of binge attacks, of how much power JABBA and food has over me... especially sugar.
Three is this mad plan forming in my mind though, parts of me shivers and doesn't like that plan at all, yet I'm desperate for change, for freedom. I think I will cut out sweets at all... even my precious dinner dessert. I know it isn't sustainable for the long run, yet I just HAVE to change something, I'm relying too much on that sugar fix after dinner.... and then I get slack and I add more and more sweets throughout the day again, like a drug addict.
I'm not totally crushed and low, don't worry, just desperate for change. Tomorrow will be a new Day 1... actually I think I won't be counting binge free days anymore... it just makes me focus on that number which isn't a good thing in my case I reckon... so tomorrow will be Day 142... my journey started back then in January, and I have changed no matter how much I struggle presently.....