Thursday, May 23, 2013
I am really freaking out because as of today I have exactly 2 weeks until my surgery. My stomach is in knots, I'm terrified, but at the same time I am ready to get beyond this place I've been for far too long.
I've been trying to get the house ready when I have enough energy and time as well as purchase things that I have read online that I need handy. I know my husband wouldn't have the patience that I do to buy things economically, so sort of feel like I'm in a fury to get it all done.
I have my pre-op appt. tomorrow and sort of nervous about that as well as my appt. to talk to the surgeon.
I got my daughter's testing done yesterday (NC law) but have to get my son's done soon before surgery so that I can mail them in and be done with that.
Today I'm getting my hair done since I will be out of commission for quite awhile so feel I'm at least making the most of the 2 weeks I have.
I got my kitchen organized finally about as much as I possibly can. I didn't do it all in one day as I don't have the energy for that, but managed to get my freezer and fridge organized and cleaned, my small laundry room (same thing), my small pantry, my bathroom, etc. My house is on the small side so it didn't take me as long as it would if it was larger, but it was exhausting but satisfying.
My daughter is getting more independent in the kitchen (my son not so much, LOL) so I know she will be fine if my husband is busy helping me after surgery.
I've been reading online about your stomach (I'm having abdominal surgery) blowing up big-time after this surgery so I have purchased a few things at Ross Dress for Less that are loose and not flattering in the least, but hopefully will work. It's a huge guess on my part, but I do have to be able to get into some type of clothes for dr. visits, etc.
I am really worried at this point about gaining weight. I will continue to eat healthy like I have been for years, but getting very scared about weight gain and not fitting into my clothes that I have spent so much time, money and effort into.
A friend told me that if both my ovaries are removed (a possibility as I believe they are taking one due to a cyst on it) that I will definitely gain weight since I'll be in surgical menopause. Really, I eat tons of veggies, fruits, whole grain bread, lean meats, and still I will gain weight? Seriously freaking out about that as well as the recovery time, pain, etc.