I don't have a cohesive blog topic today. I seem to be just rambling in my head. Raving might be a better word.
Ever feel like you are simply going insane?
That's me today. Again.
What's on my mind?
Not sure. Frustration, I think.
- At people at work; back stabbers and the inept
- At family, from whom there is no escape
- At myself mostly. Yeah; me.
I know, intellectually, that it does no good whatsoever to beat myself up about things. I should identify the problem, and then fix it. Simple. HA!
WHY is it never that simple?!? I wish I knew!
Work - I should be grateful I have a good job, and just go to work and do my work. But watching all the inequity makes me insane. And I am totally powerless.
Family - I continue to request the same respect that I expect from friends, but I don't always get it. More often, the attempts at sending me on a guilt trip now just make me angry. And I'm so tired of being angry.
Me - 40+ years of poor eating habits and sedentary behavior do NOT go away overnight. For some insane reason, I expect the weight to magically fall off me now that I have decided to follow the Eat to Live plan. Insane. And without exercise. I don't want to exercise. There are hundreds of things I'd rather do. Having dental work might even be on the list. Some evil little, or maybe no so little, part of me resists, and comes up excuses. Just do it? Right. I could be on the elliptical right now, but I choose to be typing this blog. It's like part of me is sabotaging my efforts. Why?
Clearly, I am insane.