Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Gah, I'm not a fan of blogging, especially with regards to my journey. But, I promised that I would daily regardless.
Today was a normal day - I went to bed at 10:30 yesterday, the first time in...Ever. Supposedly sleeping more/better quality aids in losing weight. Part of me keeps wondering...WHY am I losing weight? I look at myself and realize that I'm not overweight then wonder why...What's my motivation? Maybe it's because I compare myself to other women and want to be like them. But, I'm starting to doubt whether I'll ever be. I'm naturally big boned at 5'6 and a half feet. So, I don't know what I'm working towards. My goal is to get down to 130 and when I do so, I'll do my best to begin maintaining my weight. My problem was falling off the wagon last time and leaving SP behind after nearly meeting my goal without looking into maintaining my new found weight. This time, I know not to make the same mistake.
One thing I'm also doing differently this time is not weighing myself obsessively. In the past, I weighted myself MULTIPLE times a day...But, I feel as though, this sometimes backfired. As I saw myself losing weight, I felt as though I could eat more because I had "room" and focused on maintaining rather than losing. So all my hard work would simply cancel out. This time, I'm focusing on eating healthy food and taking care of my body - by not focusing on weight loss but on a permanent lifestyle change. So, I eat things that I enjoy (sweets, chips) BUT I RATION my quantity. I keep my calorie count in mind and allow myself to have those treats without overly indulging. And surprisingly...I feel full. I don't feel as hungry as I thought I would.
I can't wait to weight in on Monday and see the results. Hopefully I'll lose at least a pound and a half. Or a pound at least.
Hopefully I'm back on track for good.