Okay, so starting over isn't the right phrase, but it makes a good blog title. I know that I'm most assuredly not starting where I began. I'm making smarter choices and being healthier overall.
But I have to sit down and pour out my heart to you. I'm not where I should be. I've fallen down and I'm having a hard time getting up.
I haven't tracked in months, and I don't *want* to.
I haven't exercised in months, but I desperately want to. Lord knows my checkbook wishes I would; I'm paying for the damn gym membership.
I'm 187.4, but I hit 189 last week. I had gotten to 184. I'm really disappointed in my weight gain.
So I think that rather than jumping back in holding on to everything I know for dear life and trying to do everything at once like I've tried and failed to do a couple of times in the past few months, I'm going to set myself small, attainable goals.
For starters, I'm setting myself something I'm calling the Charlie Brown challenge.
30 pushups a day. I can do that. I'll do as many regular pushups as a I can, then finish off with modified ones as necessary.
I'm also going to start a full-body strength training program. I'm going to see what classes are being offered at the gym, although the last time I checked they'd cancelled all of the classes in the morning I wanted to attend (aside from the 5:30 AM one... that is NOT happening.) I want to use the gym for weights, though. I can get cardio easily, and prefer not being in a treadmill-grinding situation if I can help it.
My other goal is to join the bike rides at the bike store I went to. 25 miles. I can do that. I used to ride that much thinking without thinking about it. I love to bike. As much as I want to run, I have to accept that for now, I just suck at it. I don't know if it's that my weight is simply too much, or what... but biking, I can do that endlessly. I push myself too, it's not about ease... it's all about the skeletal system and its willingness to tolerate high-impact exercise. So I'm going to shelve the running for now, and focus instead on biking, my first love. I'll try running again in 20 lbs or so. :) So my weekly cardio will be on the bike.
Once I'm consistent again with the exercise, I'll start tracking my nutrition again, unless I'm making decent downward weight progress. I'm going to focus on healthier choices, of course, including lots more fresh veggies than I've been getting. This should be fairly easy, the girls are out of school, so there's more motivation to eat healthy in here. :) I'm not going to really change my eating volume right now, just my exercise volume.
In the morning, I'm going to post my before pictures. I'd take them now, but I had chinese buffet for lunch. ;) I've taken new measurements, reset all my goals (no, I don't think I'll be hitting 165 by July 31st.)