WARNING, rant coming on...
so here i sit with a huge headache
... it has been this way, most of the day. i don't know if it was the unstable weather or the people smoking right outside the laundry mat, but wow, does it hurt. i get migraines, but this one just seems to be a bad headache.
while i was sitting at the laundry mat, watching my clothes tumble around in the dryer, and reading a very old magazine, i suddenly had this terrible craving for pizza
! i was determined to get some on the way home. BUT much to my surprise, once i got close to the pizza joint, i kept going!
. haHA! i did it, woo-hoo for me! i go home, make myself some healthy lunch choices
and preceeded with my day. as the day went on, my headache increased. maybe i am a little dehydrated, it is rather humid out, so i got a big glass of water.
then, i thought, i didn't sleep well, maybe i need a nap.
, so i rested. i woke up thought i might just need some meds, so i took something for it, with another huge glass of water.
, headache was still there!
then, my daughter came home, and visions of pizza danced in my head!
i couldn't stand it any longer, so i went and got my favorite pizza (jet's medium cheese only pizza... )FOUR slices, and dipping sauce, later... now i feel awful!
i still have the headache, and now i have TONS of GUILT to go with it! i know, a slip up here and there is okay, but this past week, has been a total STRESSFUL week, i have exercised, but my eating habits took a dive, and i am supposed to weight myself tomorrow! what was i thinking when i was eating the pizza???
on top of that, i still have the headache, so i know i can't exercise tonight. i CAN exercise tomorrow, but then i do three 13 hour shifts in a row, so i know i won't be working out any of those days! i am just frustrated with myself. pizza is one of my weaknesses, especially when i am stressed or hurting...
hopefully, now that i wrote out my feelings and that stress and pain are a couple of triggers, i can learn from this mistake. although, i have been told, it is only a mistake if you don't learn from it. i think i have learned... don't know if i am gonna give in, but maybe not eat as much?
dreading getting on the scale tomorrow, i deserve whatever number there is, i just don't want to focus too much on it...